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- [We know her name!](https://weunformed.com/2019/03/we-know-her-name.html) - the wait is over! Our brave girl has a name and a story that we are just starting to scratch the surface of. You guys...she’s more beautiful and full of light and strength at her tender age of 23 months than we could have fathomed. We found out two weeks ago today and are still
- [Exciting news from the Paulraj family!](https://weunformed.com/2018/03/exciting-news-from-the-paulraj-family.html) - Dear ones we have some exciting news to share with you all! Our family is adopting again from India!!!!!! We have been approved and are about 75% thru our homestudy process. We are adopting a DAUGHTER from India and hope to bring her home within the next 18 months. You can read more at the
- [Do the next thing...](https://weunformed.com/2018/03/do-the-next-thing.html) - So, friends, where have I been these last 21 months? Well in some ways we had to just keep going. Being at my job for only 5.5 months meant there was not room for official leave and bereavement leave was only 3 days. So we had a funeral and then I clocked in to work
- [When your BRAVE is BROKEN](https://weunformed.com/2018/02/when-your-brave-is-broken.html) - I don't know, dear ones. How can I write again on this space? Or better yet, should I even write again on this space? I mean, of course, I will write again, in some way. But does it need to be here? Because if you scroll back just one page you will see it is
- [Upcoming memorial Service for Adam: Jacksonville, FL](https://weunformed.com/2016/06/upcoming-memorial-service-for-adam-jacksonville-fl.html) - O ! Lord ,Your eyes saw my unformed body Psalms 139:16 Adam Peniel Paulraj Sep 18th 2011 – June 12th 2016 In memory of our dear son Adam Paulraj, we are holding a memorial service. It is an open invitation and all are welcome to join us in celebrating his memory. He was blessed by
- [Details for Adam's Memorial Services](https://weunformed.com/2016/06/details-for-adams-memorial-services.html) - Details for memorial services #1 in Glenside, PA When: Wed 6/22 @ 6pm Where: Van Til Hall Westminster Theological Seminary 2960 church Rd. Glenside, PA 19038 Service begins at 6pm. Picnic reception to follow. Please bring lawn chairs or a blanket for picnic? •Children are welcome •Adam loved bright colors so feel free to dress
- [meeting his Maker](https://weunformed.com/2016/06/meeting-his-maker.html) - Adam Peniel Paulraj. 9.18.2011-6.12.2016 Our little bird met his Maker and Sustainer...the Shepherd of his soul early this morning. There was incredible peace that enveloped his fragile, swollen body. He will be missed by so many. It's indescribable to explain this ache. Yet to imagine his body restored and to imagine him surrounded by glory
- [continued prayer needs from ICU](https://weunformed.com/2016/06/continued-prayer-needs-from-icu.html) - Well today did not go as expected. Adam went into respiratory failure and was resuscitated for 2 hours before somewhat stabilizing. He is currently on full support from the ventilator. He is now in a private room requiring 1 on 1 care rather than a double room earlier. So things are pretty critical. (This is
- [An Update from the ICU](https://weunformed.com/2016/06/an-update-from-the-icu.html) - So we have an answer to all this madness. Adenovirus Pneumonia is its name. Respiratory distress is it's game. So Adenovirus is a nasty virus that can be really severe in all kids. Adam seems to have gotten a pretty tough run of it. The best treatment for it is time...let it pass and respiratory
- [Prayers needed for Adam tonight](https://weunformed.com/2016/06/prayers-needed-for-adam-tonight.html) - So this afternoon went a little more differently than planned and ended with our first call to 911 thus far. After finishing lunch and naps....our nurse went to wake up Adam to check on him (he's been very slowly recovering from that last admission which includes 6 weeks of antibiotics that have irritated his stomach
- [#rarediseaseday](https://weunformed.com/2016/03/rarediseaseday.html) - We have been given much over these last few months, years really. Much, indeed. One of the gifts in this new season in Pennsylvania is home health nurses to help with Adam. When we adopted Adam, we knew that there was a long road ahead. I don't believe we were blind to it...as his physical
- [Why 5 yr olds should buy houses](https://weunformed.com/2016/03/why-5-yr-olds-should-buy-houses.html) - I had the privilege of meeting a new kindred spirit this past Christmas break. She was on furlough from living overseas visiting family here in PA. The first time I met her, she sat in front of me at bible study in ugg boots with a huge grin on her face as she listened intentionally
- [my new white noise](https://weunformed.com/2016/01/my-new-white-noise.html) - Today in church, we had a service of praise. It was a gorgeous service made beautiful by stories of thanksgiving shared. A number of people, old and young, found their way up to the podium to look out at the sea of weary, yet rejoicing eyes, to share how they could thank God
- [Adam in Hospital](https://weunformed.com/2015/12/adam-in-hospital-2.html) - (So I usually like to keep the best for last. Or if given the choice, I choose bad news before good news. HOWEVER, this video is too too good. After being in the hospital for 2 days on IV fluids to rehydrate him, Adam laughed. He laughed and it is so so good. So enjoy
- [Adam is F O U R years old!](https://weunformed.com/2015/09/adam-is-f-o-u-r-years-old.html) - My baby boy. You are turning 4 years old today. I still remember sitting in that hot, stuffy office in the pediatrics genetics department in Delhi, India. They laid you on the desk, pointed out certain parts of you, took pictures, uploaded them to the London data base BC they were so bewildered. Then they did
- [On Mothers and Mother's Day](https://weunformed.com/2015/05/on-mothers-and-mothers-day.html) - The longer I am on this journey of motherhood, the harder it becomes. Just sayin.I became a mom nearly 4 years ago. I had been married for 6 months at the tender age of 24. It was an unexpected beginning. There were not 9 months, stretch marks, or those awful leg cramps in the middle
- [Ostomy bags on a Sunday Morning](https://weunformed.com/2014/12/ostomy-bags-on-sunday-morning.html) - I once wrote here, regarding my being grafted in to the community of families of children with disabilities or special needs that "now I realize the glory within (this community) and I never want out"But sometimes, I do.Sometimes, I do want out of the inconveniences and the research, medical bills, and uncertainty.I want out of
- [Three Years since THAT Thanksgiving](https://weunformed.com/2014/12/three-years-since-that-thanksgiving.html) - I remember THAT Thanksgiving quite vividly. Perhaps some of you, who have been on this journey since the beginning, can too? I will recount a bit of it for you:September 18, 2011 Adam was born.
- [On Writing and Bicycles](https://weunformed.com/2014/11/on-writing-and-bicycles.html) - So it seems that nearly 6 weeks have passed since we moved home, from our home in India. To be honest, it feels like a year in many ways considering all that has been packed into these 6 weeks. My parents were gracious enough to host us for the first 3 weeks as we navigated
- [Handprints and Comfort.](https://weunformed.com/2015/02/handprints-and-comfort.html) - This is, perhaps, one of my very favorite pictures. It captures my life in this season so well. There are holes in pants, stitched just for Adam, that need to be patched. Those holes speak of his ability to crawl...which surpasses the understanding of all who meet him for the first time. Those vibrant colors
- [Adam health update](https://weunformed.com/2015/02/adam-health-update.html) - "As your prime minister, I urge you with caution"-William Pitt" and as my friend?"-William Wilberforce"To hell with caution..."-William PittIf you don't know the story of Wilberforce and Pitt...stop now and find out. Wilberforce was strategic in getting the British parliament to end British involvement in the slave trade. Pitt was a best friend of his who
- [I want to be writing: but...](https://weunformed.com/2015/04/i-want-to-be-writing-but.html) - After I finished nursing school I went on a dream of a Europe backpacking trip adventure. I went alongside two of my dear nursing school buddies. We bought a ticket into Paris, France and out of Athens, Greece. Our only mission: get from Paris to Athens in 5 weeks. Friends, it was grand.We arrived in Paris
- [Just in case you thought I knew what I was doing....](https://weunformed.com/2015/06/just-in-case-you-thought-i-knew-what-i.html) - I have absolutely no idea.Just in case you thought I must be real special or called or compassionate in order to raise a boy like Adam...I am not.Just in case you thought that because Raja is a doctor and I am a nurse, that we know what to do when Adam is sick...We don't.Good gracious
- [Surgery Day](https://weunformed.com/2015/06/surgery-day.html) - (In a nutshell, we are home from surgery and all went well! If you want a play by play, here goes...)5 am Wake up call508 am Realize we slept thru wake up call-Frenzied rush to kitchen to brew coffee (Maslow's hierarchy of needs, clearly)- Raj quickly wakes Adam to give a quick pre procedure bath-I
- [Who helped Him?](https://weunformed.com/2015/07/who-helped-him.html) - "Momma who helped HIM?Who helped Jesus?"That was the question Elliot blurted out when He saw a brief screenshot of our King on Calvary. His little heart and mind were so overcome and all He could muster up was this guttural question of who helped Him. Because Elliot knows if he gets hurt, so many run
- [Adam in the Hospital](https://weunformed.com/2015/07/adam-in-hospital.html) - Adam ended up being admitted this past week in the hospital. I forgot how quickly kids can spiral downhill when it comes to hydration. We had a checkup on Monday afternoon and by Monday at midnight we knew things were bad. He could not hold anything down, like not even 3 ml of Pedialyte. It was
- [We've Moved!](https://weunformed.com/2015/08/weve-moved.html) - I reckon I am a bit overdue here, but our family has moved to Philadelphia! We moved about 3 weeks ago and are quite impressed with this amazing state. We are surrounded by beauty in our backyard and neighborhood. We have incredibly kind neighbors who are growing accustomed to seeing our boys barefoot running down
- ["ordinary"](https://weunformed.com/2015/08/ordinary.html) - So it is now mid August and Adam has fully recovered from that hospital admission. Friends, it was bad. Thank you for your prayers. We got a call a week after he was discharged from the hospital informing us that the official diagnosis was Salmonella poisoning. I still do not know how Adam contracted Salmonella
- [How Adam's "Disability" SOO Does NOT Disable Us.](https://weunformed.com/2015/09/how-adams-disability-soo-does-not.html) - little Adam perched on Raja's back...his very favorite place Today we ventured back to the creek that Elliot and Rohan navigated and scouted out last week. This time, we packed a picnic dinner and wore our proper swimming gear. And best of all, we brought Adam!It was that magical evening hour where the sun seems to
- [India to America](https://weunformed.com/2014/10/because-when-seen-in-light-of-heavens.html) - "BECA-- USE WHEN SEEN IN THE LIGHT OF HEAVEN'S GLORY, EVEN THE MOST BROKEN OF BODIES IS BEAUTIFUL"So another gap of time has passed since I last wrote. In that time, we have packed up our entire lives in India and traveled 30 hours (with three boys under 3 years old) back to Florida. We arrived
- [Regarding San Francisco Globe, Donations, and Such;)](https://weunformed.com/2014/09/regarding-san-francisco-globe-donations.html) - Sometimes, Abba God amazes us in the ways He continues to use Adam and his precious life around this world of ours.The San Francisco Globe recently ran the story of Adam that was done by CBN last year. The link to the SFG article, run yesterday, can be found hereAdam's life astounds us daily...this picture of
- [In Which I Remember I am a Pilgrim](https://weunformed.com/2014/09/in-which-i-remember-i-am-pilgrim.html) - June 2006 marked the advent of my life in India. What began as simply a 3 month trip to volunteer has stretched into years of a life wrecked, rebuilt, andultimately transformed. The years have rendered beauty, divinity, and redemption in the last ways I dreamed to see such things.These days stretched into months and ultimately years
- [Finally that Birthing Story](https://weunformed.com/2014/08/finally-that-birthing-story.html) - So let's be honest. I thought I would have written this weeks ago. But, alas, these past 6 weeks seem like a fog in this ever shrinking galaxy that I like to call my mind.Last pregnant picture...at a little bday party friends threw for me here.I'd like to say that I am in some cute
- [This Paradoxical God](https://weunformed.com/2014/08/this-paradoxical-god.html) - When I first came to India, I was full of ideas and dreams. These dreams included a lot of me, a tinge of adventure, visions of dozens being rescued and redeemed, and a good God writing a sweet story with many happy endings.I knew I followed a God who redeems, I knew I had training
- [This is motherhood (too)](https://weunformed.com/2014/07/this-is-motherhood-too.html) - this is motherhood {too}: a *very* special needs adoption journeyJuly 15, 2014 by This is Motherhood Too By Jessica PaulrajIn September 2014, we will celebrate our oldest son’s 3rd birthday. His name is Adam and from what medicine and logic predicted, he was not supposed to live past 2 months. Three years? How quickly they seem to have passed as I look
- [And We're BACK;)](https://weunformed.com/2014/07/and-were-back.html) - Alright dear ones...I took an unannounced hiatus from this little blip on the screen of cyberspace. I did it for two reasons.Reason 1: I am still learning how to pray. I have written a few entries now on "Teach Us How to Pray", however, in many ways I did not feel as though I was implementing
- [Prayers to guide us in praying for those that SEEM forgotten (because they're not)](https://weunformed.com/2014/05/prayers-to-guide-us-in-praying-for.html) - This is the 3rd in that "series", of sorts, "Lord Teach us to Pray"___________________________________________________________The streets here seem to palpate with hardship and need at times. The colors may be vibrant and the spices and bedazzled saris may tinge the streets with a romantic splendor that briefly distracts the gaze from the disabled beggar or the
- [Gusts of Glory](https://weunformed.com/2014/05/gusts-of-glory.html) - We were sitting outside for our church service last week and Elliot was rummaging in the yard(Typically, he makes it thru worship then we play outside during sermon hour)He was running, full force, towards the grassy knoll surrounded by mountain glory...Then he stopped.Right in his tracks, he stopped.It took me a second to notice what
- [In the name of LOVE; mental health and that time in London](https://weunformed.com/2014/05/in-name-of-love-mental-health-and-that.html) - So I once had this amazing opportunity to study in London.It was for a Diploma in Tropical Nursing at the London School of Hygiene and Tropical Medicine (yes.yes. the same school referenced in the last Call the Midwife episode...no big deal... hehe)That season in England was one I will treasure for many years. I was
- [On being bruised reeds. And detaching from our incubators.](https://weunformed.com/2014/05/on-being-bruised-reeds-and-detaching.html) - I spent some time last night sorting thru pictures from our past 3 years.I found this picture, below, of me feeding Adam thru his NG (nasogastric) tube...that we placed orally, as he did not really have a nose at this point. I realized 2 things:1. There is no way I could put an NG tube down
- [MIA as we fled to the mountains](https://weunformed.com/2014/05/mia-as-we-fled-to-mountains.html) - The blog is on a bit of a lull these days...About 2 weeks ago Adam's health started deteriorating, specifically his skin.The heat swept thru our region of India and brought it's two comrades, dust and brutality, with it.Those three comrades (heat, dust, and brutality) do not treat our Adam well...And his skin started going all
- [On Writing and All Hell Breaking Loose](https://weunformed.com/2014/04/on-writing-and-all-hell-breaking-loose.html) - First of all, thank you to all who went out to Downtown Jacksonville's One Spark FestivalThe artist, Scott Morphew, who featured a piece for Adam placed 26th out of over 600 entries.That is pretty amazing_________________________________________________________________So, honesty, it is a good policy. That is what they say;)And I have come to treasure transparency and honesty more
- [From the lips of children and infants... (a video)](https://weunformed.com/2014/04/from-lips-of-children-and-infants-video.html) - So I sometimes find myself not writing on here because I imagine this blog needs to be something really elaborate and thought provoking and long (I know, I know, you probably would love shorter posts)I find myself writing out random thoughts throughout my daysGradually, over a few days, I construct thoughts, and eventually a "jessica-approved"
- [Lessons from Adam](https://weunformed.com/2014/04/lessons-from-adam.html) - Before I get started...read yesterday's post and if you are in the Jax area...Head to One Spark and vote for Adam today!I have learned things from our Adam that will surely echo in my heart and mind forevermore.His life in itself is a miracle and a gift.His laughter, I am sure, makes "the trees of the
- [Be One Spark!](https://weunformed.com/2014/04/be-one-spark.html) - So you may remember last year, when we shared about One Spark Jacksonville?Well it is taking place again THIS WEEKEND.It is happening right now and local artist, Scott Morphew, is featuring his piece in honor of Adam again.You can visit the website for the current One Spark festival HEREIf you are in Jacksonville, please be
- [Prayers to Guide us in Praying for the Wild Spirited, Wonder- Struck Little Ones in our Lives](https://weunformed.com/2014/04/prayers-to-guide-us-in-praying-for-wild.html) - Well, life here at the Raj Mahal has been a bit lulled this past week. It has taken us nearly a full week to recover from our travels. Naptimes are not what they were (will they ever be restored?? Oh how I hope so;)This body, rounded with a 29 week old life, has been sore and
- [South India Trip](https://weunformed.com/2014/03/south-india-trip.html) - I am sorry that I skipped a week (possibly 2, by now) in the Prayer SeriesI did not consider the 2 week trip to South India we were taking. And internet access was not a regularity;)I shared this picture below the night before we left for South India with a caption somewhat like this, "if you
- [Prayers to Guide Us in Praying for a Child Battling a Diagnosis (Teach us to Pray, 2)](https://weunformed.com/2014/03/prayers-to-guide-us-in-praying-for.html) - That was their request."Lord, TEACH us to pray"The 12 that walked closest with our Savior in His time on earth. They communed with him all the day long, yet they knew there was something deeper. They knew that there was a fellowship beyond the meals shared and the parables heard. And so they asked. These middle
- [Exciting Happenings in 2014 (from an entertainment perspective)](https://weunformed.com/2014/02/exciting-happenings-in-2014-from.html) - I thought I'd share a few happenings in 2014 that have my heart fluttering;)Books Two of my favorite stories of God and His mercy and redemption and glorious power are written about and testified by two bloggers. I look forward to each time I hear an update from each of them, whose stories are vastly different.
- [Lord, TEACH us to Pray](https://weunformed.com/2014/02/lord-teach-us-to-pray.html) - It is a Monday morning and at least 10 degrees higher (Fahrenheit) than every Monday morning thus far this year. We have been outside all the day long and what a gift it has been.this boy LOVES being outside
- [Alive and Well](https://weunformed.com/2014/02/alive-and-well.html) - It is nearly 2pm on this Thursday afternoon. I am slowly being awakened by a steaming cup o joe and the sound of our washer machine, whose spin cycle's noises could compete with any Kansas twister or demolition of a building. Literally, I can hear the machine when I bike by our house outside.But, this
- [Feasting at His table; Kicking the locusts OUT](https://weunformed.com/2014/01/feasting-at-his-table-kicking-locusts.html) - Sun rays are brilliant today.Those splendid green parrots are perched outside singing while Elliot naps and Adam tries to sleep."Feast or famine"That is what they say right?That is what it seems like this week...Elliot's face is covered in a strange rash/mysterious bug bits and Adam has his first sickness in 5 months.So I am a
- ["Bringing Back Baby Adam"](https://weunformed.com/2014/01/bringing-back-baby-adam.html) - We were grateful for an opportunity to share some of our story in UNC's ENT winter publication.You can find Adam's story by scrolling to the 4th page of the journal below.Thank you UNC for continuing to care for our Adam and so many others;)If you see in the top left of the box below a
- [a little something to share...;)](https://weunformed.com/2014/01/a-little-something-to-share.html) - How many Paulrajs fit on an Indian bicycle? At least 4....Why not add one more?!? Baby Paulraj set to arrive June 18th (happens to be my bday & my little sisters bday;) Adam and Elliot are still figuring out how they feel.Maybe we should upgrade to a car?Or atleast a rickshaw? ;)
- ["daddy's with you Adam"](https://weunformed.com/2014/01/daddys-with-you-adam.html) - The dawn has not yet broken but awake we are.And the truth is, I am sure many more of you are awake, or will be woken up earlier than you plan in the morning to come.Because, isn't that how life is?And the majority of you will wake up, take the coffee down, turn on the
- [On legs and clouds and a POEM](https://weunformed.com/2014/01/on-legs-and-clouds-and-poem.html) - It is a cool, overcast afternoon.The white puffy clouds are masking the blue glory that lies beneath.But I am now in a place where I TRY to believe there is glory in these clouds too.Their presence does not negate the existence of the blue expanse above us all.There are certainly seasons where the blue firmament
- [Joy in 2014](https://weunformed.com/2014/01/joy-in-2014.html) - 2013 has come and gone.What a year it wasFor fun, I put together this little video with about 30 favorite pictures from 2013The pictures stream thru in 15 secondsIt may make you dizzy...(Hopefully not)I do not think I have mastered the video making in 15 seconds yet.But give it a try by clicking over at
- [Christmas Reflection (from Christmas 2011)](https://weunformed.com/2013/12/christmas-reflection-from-christmas-2011.html) - We had a lovely 2013 Christmas...full with an energetic Elliot and a cuddly Adam.Here is a bit from 2 years ago that I enjoyed reflecting on this ChristmasLove to each of you_____________________________________________________________Remember, as this "Christmas season" passes.Remember that Abba Father is not a season. Each night is holy.For He is Holy.And He never leaves nor forsakes.For a
- [On "coolest kids on instagram", onions in the laundry, and jorts;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/12/on-coolest-kids-on-instagram-onions-in.html) - Excited to share a neat opportunity we had;)A few weeks ago I got a sweet email from a sweet lady named Katie who writes for SHE KNOWS Parenting.It is a parenting website/magazine that shares stories, tips, etc.She asked about sharing a bit of our boys from my instagram account in an article.I was beyond humbled
- [On Adam's "soul brother", Saliman;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/12/on-adams-soul-brother-saliman.html) - Do you remember me writing about meeting Saliman?I wrote a Part 1 and a Part 2.For those who may not remember, Saliman is the one other boy in the U.S. with Adam's condition.To say it infused us with great encouragement to hear there was another, would be a drastic understatement.Saliman is also adopted and is
- [Gift giving time](https://weunformed.com/2013/12/gift-giving-time.html) - So as you all probably know, our internet is quite irregular these days.The reasons that we are given are endless and quite entertaining."When it is cold the lines are difficult""The man who flips the switch is on leave" (for 2 weeks)And I will stop there;)But alas, the weather has not gotten any colder, so the
- [On 5 Minute Fridays...Or lack thereof;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/11/on-5-minute-fridaysor-lack-thereof.html) - So there is this woman named Lisa Jo Baker. She is a brilliant, real, and quite funny writer.And she started this thing called "5 Minute Friday" which I loveIt calls writers/bloggers/whomever to write for 5 minutes flat, every Friday, on a word she choosesYou do not have time to edit it...you just must share.I did it
- [the language of his hands](https://weunformed.com/2013/11/the-language-of-his-hands.html) - Yesterday was my dad's birthday.So I thought I would share this memory from last year, in honor of him;)I wrote this after his first trip to India in March 2013.It was epic indeed;)So Poppa Cooksey (my dad) has departed our "raj mahal" here in north India.He is currently in Delhi, worshiping with Raja, and these faces before
- [Thanks for the Prayers;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/11/thanks-for-prayers.html) - I shared last week to pray for a bout of sickness Adam had.Thanks so much for that;)He is doing much better. One week of antibiotics is done and we are on the mend;)To celebrate...we have been taking Adam back outside;)Elliot was pretty excited to have his brother back;)Here are some pictures...evidence that Adam is back!Elliot's current
- [5 Minute Friday](https://weunformed.com/2013/11/5-minute-friday.html) - I am linking up with hundreds (maybe thousands?) of other women HEREThis week is "Truth"(No time for editing or such...just write then stop)__________________________________________________________________I remember that dusty classroom on the second floorSituated in my high school in downtown JacksonvilleThose classrooms and halls were filled with some of the most brilliant minds I have ever studied alongsideWe were
- [Understanding "Together"](https://weunformed.com/2013/11/understanding-together.html) - down the road on Friday night, a store owner in preparation for "Festival of Lights"So it is the first night in a while that Diwali festival music is not spiraling thru sound waves of our houseNor is their a marriage tent set up right outside playing dance music way past my bed timeYet, here I
- [Kiss of Life Video](https://weunformed.com/2013/11/kiss-of-life-video.html) - It has been a beautiful journey, these past 2 years with Adam.One of the most beautiful parts of it is all the people who have come alongside of us.Dr Van Aalst, the doctor behind it all;) and Scott Morphew, local Jax artist who made this masterpiece;) Jacksonville, Florida is my hometown and it has astounded us
- ["Let us Break Bread together ON OUR KNEES"](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/let-us-break-bread-together-on-our-knees.html) - Cool mists are sweeping thru these mountainous regions and the chill is invigorating.While I sip on this chicken and potato spicy soup goodness, that song plays on.It is a song that I have been playing on repeat since Sunday.Because on Sunday morning I was despondent.No reason, specifically.Just despondent and questioning His ways.Questioning the paradoxical Truth
- [On Snails and Perseverance](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/on-snails-and-perseverance.html) - So Raja has been out of town for meetings and is heading back by train tonight.I surely do miss him;)So here is a picture in his honor;)a favorite picture of us from this summer; in St. Augustine at my brother's wedding"It was by perseverance that the snail reached the ark" -spurgeonThis, my dears, is perhaps
- [Because I have been with Him](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/because-i-have-been-with-him.html) - I journeyed by bicycle today with Elliot on my back.Raja and Adam were sound asleep, so Elliot and I took off.It was grand, indeed;)We saw lots of beauty.It surrounded us.In rays of sun piercing thru blades of grass.In marigold buckets overflowing all down the street.In fields aglow atop of sea of green.In fields of flowers
- [5 Minute Friday, "Together"](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/5-minute-friday-together.html) - Let's pretend like I live in Hawaii and it is still 824 PM on Friday night.Because my internet just started here in India and I have the chance to post this.I am joining lots of women over HERE to write for 5 minutes on the word: TOGETHER____________________________________________________So I had traveled to Calcuttawith 4 of my
- [Meeting Saliman (Part 2)](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/meeting-saliman-part-2.html) - I wrote last week about meeting a precious boy named Saliman.You can read Part 1 hereI decided to do a Part 1 and Part 2 because my heart was divided after meeting him.Though it was all rooted in joy and thankfulness, there was a sadness too.It is hard to explain, I guess.But it is mainly
- [A beautiful, anonymous response to "Laundry"](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/a-beautiful-anonymous-response-to.html) - So last week I wrote on "Laundry"It was a quick, unedited, and rushed postI wrote about what I learned on a Delhi rooftop about "Laundry"And the one comment I got in response was from someone anonymousBut it was just glorious.This was it"Laundry and dirty dishes, too. Miserable chores that have secret messages--we are alive, and
- ["Laundry"; 5 Minute Friday](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/laundry-5-minute-friday.html) - I am joining that group again this FridayWriting on a word given (this week "laundry")We have 5 minutes to writeNo editing allowed.It is a bit hard to publish something I have not read thru again and edited.But here goes;)On laundry and such;)__________________________________________________________It was on a rooftop in Delhi that I learned about laundryI learned that
- [Meeting Saliman (Part 1)](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/meeting-saliman-part-1.html) - This past September I had the chance to travel to New York. My main purpose in going was to see my brother who is a senior at West Point. Yea, he is a big deal;) He is pretty much unstoppable and full of intellect, valor, and strength and has overcome every obstacle that has come
- [Jet lag, periwinkle, and thorns;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/jet-lag-periwinkle-and-thorns.html) - Alright my friends, we are needing some prayer for my boy Elliot.He cannot quite get this sleep pattern down.Poor baby is up every day at 3 am ready to seize the day.That looks like high pitched squeals and dances to even the most mellow of melodies I choose to play.So it is a chance for
- ["Ordinary", 5 Minute Friday](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/ordinary-5-minute-friday.html) - So I am going to try and join a group of writers over at this blog every FridayThey give you one word to write on and you have 5 minutes to write, no editing, etc.I got the idea from my dear friend Michaela who writes like an artist over HEREI think this will be a
- [over and out.](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/over-and-out.html) - We are flying out today from Jax-Newark-Delhi.Would much appreciate prayers for safe travels and sleeping babies;)Everyone is doing well and we are so grateful to United Airlines for their help in assisting our family in our travels.I will write more once we get back to our home in India to update you on more on this
- [Oh elliot. I love you son.](https://weunformed.com/2013/10/this-is-post-i-have-been-wanting-to.html) - This is a post I have been wanting to share for a while.Let's be honest.I mean, that is what we all want anyways, right?Yes, I believe so.So I am going to be honest.One thing I struggle with in real life and in cyber life;)Is communicating and expressing my love for EACH of our boys.I mean,
- [on MUSIC and LAUGHTER](https://weunformed.com/2013/09/on-music-and-laughter.html) - "MUSIC AND LAUGHTER WILL BE THE BUSINESS OF HEAVEN"- cs lewisEternal longings root themselves deep in this mama's heart.For she knows that there are unseen glories far beyond what our finite eyes can behold.For there is glory deeper than we knowThere is a day where every tear will be wipedWhen little boys and little girls
- [Specs.](https://weunformed.com/2013/09/specs.html) - You know on our wedding bulletin, we had this printed:"The Lord has done GREAT things for us and we are FILLED WITH JOY"(And surely he had done great things...but we had no idea all the goodness in store...)It is a psalm of davidEarlier in the Psalm, he writes"our mouths were filled with laughter and our
- [September the 18th](https://weunformed.com/2013/09/september-18th.html) - Alright my dears.I wish I was as regular on here as I was during Story Time that stretched thru June, July, and AugustBut, alas, I have not been.For that, I am sorry.For there is so much to share that I get a bit overwhelmed thinking about it.To be honest, just living it can threaten to
- [On all this passing time](https://weunformed.com/2013/09/on-all-this-passing-time.html) - Life passes by and there is often time not a chance to jot it all downI try to store it up in my heart, as Mary did, but I wonder if I will remember it all?Because the Truth is, there is glory all around.There is glory in the mundane, the tragic, and the ease.It is
- [This little light of mine](https://weunformed.com/2013/09/this-little-light-of-mine.html) - So we have been discharged for 2 days now.It is definitely a slow recovery.But it is coming along;)Adam has been outside once each dayAnd swinging on the swing set is certainly his therapyI love walking these 2 to the park in their Radio Flyer wagonWe have a follow up appointment tomorrow with the main surgeonContinued
- [Discharged;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/09/discharged.html) - Dear ones,We were discharged on Sunday and Adam is at home restingPlease continue to pray against infection and for thorough healing and restoration of strength;)This is all for Adam's surgeries for this year.We will continue to update you on how he does;)jessadam last night;) he loves elmo extreme.
- [Thoughts from my wandering heart](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/thoughts-from-my-wandering-heart.html) - Adam health update:Keep praying. He is doing a little better. But there are still some signs of questionable infection that are still be looked into. Pray for wisdom for all treating and for his healing. This is disheartening to see him struggling when he has had such a great summer of health.I scribbled these lyrics
- [How is Adam Doing?](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/how-is-adam-doing.html) - Greeting you early on this humid North Carolina morning from our little hospital room.You know, there is something beautiful about waking up in North Carolina.I have always loved it, from days camping and staying in my aunt and uncle's mountain cabin in Franklin, to summer camp days in Asheville, to these summer mornings in Chapel
- [Prayer Request and (SOME of) Your Pictures](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/prayer-request-and-your-pictures.html) - Thanks guys for all of your prayers.It has been an up and down week.But today, Adam spiked a high fever and had a pretty intense cough.We brought him
- [3rd day post op](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/3rd-day-post-op.html) - So day 3 after surgery has been rough:( prayers welcomed;) Adam didn't sleep well last night... Raja was up with him most of the night ( this was what I woke up to). Please pray against fever/infection and also pray against reflux from different medications that he is on. Pray for quick and fast healing and for strength and trust
- [Discharged and home](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/discharged-and-home.html) - We were discharged yesterday (Saturday) eveningContinued prayers for healthy recovery, no infection, and pain management are appreciated;)Love to you alladam has to wear restraints called "no no's" on her arms to prevent him from sticking things in his mouth and opening up the sutures. he is so frustrated!this boy is happy to have us all
- [The Long Awaited Post;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/the-long-awaited-post.html) - Dear ones, thank you for your patienceIt is nearly midnight.I (jess) have come home to rest while Raja sticks out the night with AdamSurgery went well.A lot of investigationsOne thing I wanted to share:How VERY excited and amazed the eye docs were with Adam's eyesIt is truly a miracleHis eyes are in incredible shape after
- [On Surgery (and how we can all be there together;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/on-surgery-and-how-we-can-all-be-there.html) - So tomorrow at 730 am Adam goes in for a long surgery.At the minimum it will be 5 hours.Do be praying.They are estimating and budgeting for 1 day in the hospital and coming home by Saturday most likely.Since Adam has a trach, the airway is not an issue b/c the trach is considered a safe
- [On Surgeries and Giving and Thanks and Clarification](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/on-surgeries-and-giving-and-thanks-and.html) - Dear all,Thank you for all that each of you have done. Truly thank you.Surgery is scheduled for Friday at 730 AM.That is wonderful.I want to again reiterate how grateful we are.I also want to share that though we are just at the amount needed for surgery...It is hard to predict complications, extra nights in the hospital,extra
- [CAN I TELL YOU....](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/can-i-tell-you.html) - Surgery is Friday at 730 AM!"Dear ones... Drum roll please... Money is in! Surgeries are a go;) thank you to each and every one of you who gave. Truly thank you. I mean but if he gave us His son, how will He not also graciously give us All things???" Oh how Abba loves us!"
- [Birds of the air](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/birds-of-air.html) - So it is nearly 11am.We are heading out with our radio flyer wagon in tow to pre op appointments.Adam and Elliot are happy as larks;)And this morning when all I could think of was dollar signs, questions, and worries...I walk outside and saw that happening.I saw that little hummingbird buzzing away in all the morning
- [Preparation, CBN, and 50k more needed](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/preparation-cbn-and-50k-more-needed.html) - We are back in NC and will be here for a few weeks.Raja is amazing and packed up the car...for the 30th time I am sureEvidence of his labor is in the pictures.This man never rests. Besides in his time with his Lord.He is always doing and moving and helpingWhether in India working 6 day weeks
- [CBN Follow Up Story](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/cbn-follow-up-story.html) - Dear all,The second story on CBN just aired.You can see it HEREThe first story (from over 1 year ago) is HEREWe are on the road to NC for appointments and surgery in a week!But do please share these stories.CBN has done a great follow up story
- [Can I Tell You a Story (14)?](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/can-i-tell-you-story-14.html) - We are going to keep this story time going until August 23rd is passed.We are just sharing stories of all that Abba Father has done thus farAnd the Hope we have in future grace;)He will provide for His childrenBecause it is WHO HE ISLogistics Update:DEAR ONES...$110,000 total has been raised!Thank you so very much.We drive
- [Can I Tell You a Story (13)? And show you a VIDEO;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/can-i-tell-you-story-13-and-show-you.html) - So February 14th was never an applauded, nor anticipated, day in my calendar yearJust being honest.Let's just say that it never came with knocks on the door, flowers, the newest 98 degrees song playing, and a dreamy boy taking me out.But it did seem like every other girl I knew certainly had each February 14th
- [Can I Tell you a Story? (13)](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/can-i-tell-you-story-13.html) - Logistics UpdateI know it is hard not having an actual number of funds raised.It is hard for us as well.Basically, the computer program that the Medical Foundation of NC uses is being converted/changed over/etc.So for a few weeks it is hard to get a total of fundsThe checks are coming in every day and are
- [On Polluting Shadows and Such](https://weunformed.com/2013/08/on-polluting-shadows-and-such.html) - "Train them.Give themsharp eyesAnd bellies FULL OF LAUGHTERMake them dangerousAnd whenThey've grownThey will POLLUTE THE SHADOWS"
- [A Chance to Share: She Does Justice](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/a-chance-to-share-she-does-justice.html) - So the original post to this can be found HEREI am thankful for this beautiful lady and a chance to share our story via her blog for the month of JulyAny purchases you make from this site today and tomorrow...10% comes to Adam.Hop on over and take a look.And if you are in the mood
- [Can I tell You a Story? (12)](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/can-i-tell-you-story-12.html) - Logistics UpdateJust to inform you all, the Medical Foundation is having a shift in computer programs.So for the past week we have not been able to get in actual estimates throughout the days, as they were doing earlier.I know we were above $86,000 raised last week.And I know a lot has been given since then.My
- [With Every Story...](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/with-every-story.html) - There is a need for a steaming cup of something.Am I right?Feeling a hot sipper wetten your face with its rising steam offers a sense of enjoyment,(at least I believe so)And though I am a lover of coffeeMy time in India has made me an adorer of chaiChai means tea, in Hindi, by the waySo
- [Can I tell you a Story (11)?](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/can-i-tell-you-story-11.html) - I know that our story times have been dwindling.It is just a busy few weeks around here.And my brother, Jennings, is getting married this weekend..So this may (or may not) be the only one this weekThanks for grace extended in these moments;)__________________________________________________Logistics Update:Dear ones, we we gifted $20,000 yesterday!Last week, we had a little over
- [for this Sabbath](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/for-this-sabbath.html) - "there is no scarcity in God. There is abundance. When Jesus wants to feed the multitudes, there's going to be leftovers" jr vassar
- [Can I tell you a Story (10)?](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/can-i-tell-you-story-10.html) - So this story has a few characters.And someone else is going to share it today.For starters, the characters are:Melody- an old friend of mine. She worked at camp with me in Asheville, NC for a few years when I was in highschool and college. She is a beautiful free spirit and has a precious blog
- [Can I tell you a Story (9)?](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/can-i-tell-you-story-9.html) - In the morning, when I rise... I realize that picture may look staged, but I promise you it wasn'tTruly, I had that gorgeous blanket out on the lawnMy spicy chai in tow (with biscuits to dip)And for 2
- [Can I tell you a Story (8)](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/can-i-tell-you-story-8.html) - Can I tell you that this month, we are excited to be the cause featured by She Does JusticeThis is a beautiful company started by a sweet momma on her own adoption journey.What turned out as a fundraiser lead to a small business being started!Megan started the company She Does Justice and describes it here:"She
- [Can I tell you a Story (7)?](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/can-i-tell-you-story-7.html) - LOGISTICSDear ones, $50,000 total has been raised thus far.THAT is breathtakingTruly, that is so much.Thank you to each of you who gave, prayed, and shared.We could never thank you enough.We still have $100,000 to go...But we have hope.Surgeries will now be in mid August.We need to have that total in by mid August.I know it
- [Can I tell you a story? (6)](https://weunformed.com/2013/07/can-i-tell-you-story-6.html) - LOGISTICS updateMoney is coming in.I know we had a total of about $14,000 come in last week.We have not received a new "current total" yet, this week.I will update you as soon as we do have one.We are reaching out and sharing to as many sources as we can think of.We are hopeful.Tomorrow at 4pm,
- [Not a story, but a quote;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/not-story-but-quote.html) - "Love is foolish enough to believe the impossible will just keep happening. Be that foolish at least twice a day"bob goffThose are some good words for this soul.He is able to do INFINITELY more than we could ever ask or imagine.The Word, Living, tells us that.And Goff reminds us of the impossibilities that are infinitely possible
- [Can I tell you a story? (5)](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/can-i-tell-you-story-5.html) - So just to encourage everyone...$8,160 has come in the past 48 hours.That is no small feat, dear ones.That is huge and we are beyond thankful.Thank you to EACH of you...who are giving sacrificially.I know life is hard and there are so many needs in each of your lives.I thank you for considering and giving to
- [Can I tell you a Story (4)](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/can-i-tell-you-story-4.html) - So, remember?We are in a series of raising Ebenezers (what Samuel did to remember what God had done)We are remembering, each day, His faithfulness.In this time of waiting for funds, let us all be faithful.Faithful in the waiting.For He is at work in these moments.His ways are not our ways.Nor His thoughts, ours.The prophet Isaiah
- [Can I tell you a story (3)](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/can-i-tell-you-story-3.html) - This story has a couple thousand words.But don't worry, I will keep it short;)Because pictures, they say,Say a thousand words right?And THIS boy is 9 months old today!Goodness he is a treasure and we are thankful for his lifeToday, we raise up our Ebenezer ofElliot Justice PaulrajHe is a gift to us and we are
- [Can I tell you a story? (take 2)](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/can-i-tell-you-story-take-2.html) - Because stories, they pulse.What else pulses?Blood.Blood flows thru us and it gives life.And our stories, they pulse.Because, when we see them in the Light...They speak one thingThey speak of a Blood spilt.And when we receive it (the Blood, that is), it makes its way into us.A transfusion, of sorts.And His blood, it transfuses and it
- [Can I tell you a Story?](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/can-i-tell-you-story.html) - Dear readers, You are faithful and I adore each of you. We have seen a handful of specialists over the past few days. To be honest, it is always overwhelming. I do not know if me (Jess) being a nurse and Raja being a doctor makes it easier or harder. Simply being
- [Anchors and Puffy Eyes](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/anchors-and-puffy-eyes.html) - Dear ones. We are winding down for the day. My eyes feel puffy...as if I have been weeping all the day long.Yet, I have not been weeping all the day long, rest assured.But I just feel so much is going on.And it threatens to dismount me.It threatens to shake my boat.But my anchor is HimAs Hebrews 6
- [First day of appointments](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/first-day-of-appointments.html) - Yesterday was our first full day of appointments. We saw the pediatric surgeon, had a renal US, and met with the plastic surgeon, and pediatrician.It was a little overwhelming being back in a place that was packed with such intensity for us last year.So many unknowns.So much need for raising money, etc.So much fear with
- ["beautiful for me"](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/beautiful-for-me.html) - If He cares for the grass of the field, that is here today and gone tomorrow.And if He cares for the birds of the air and provides for them each day.HOW MUCH MORE will He care for us?Indeed, little ones, so much more.I am trying to press that into my little boys heart a lot
- [Urinary Tracts and a faithful God](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/urinary-tracts-and-faithful-god.html) - So you, my dear ones, are so faithful. You are so faithfully praying, encouraging, coming up with ideas to help us, and just so faithfully loving. And even when we, mankind, fall short of it. He is faithful. For He cannot deny Himself. Is that not so very reassuring?So when I question sickness for my little
- [heading to NC (early)](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/heading-to-nc-early.html) - hey all. we are heading to NC a little earlier than expected. Adam spiked a fever yesterday. Its resolved (thank you Abba) but still he is weak and tired. We are driving up just in case he gets sick again.Remembering Ann Voskamps words about life not being an emergency. She says something along the lines
- [On needing $140,000 more AND being the apple of His eye](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/on-needing-140000-more-and-being-apple.html) - It has been one of those mornings that keeps me wanting to praise Him.It was an early morning with Elliot and my parents while Raja and Adam bird slept in.I had time for a run while Elliot fell asleep again.Then, I was instructed to go on a mandatory outing with myself.I was told to drink
- [Coming up, out of the valley](https://weunformed.com/2013/06/coming-up-out-of-valley.html) - I have made it a few steps out of the valley, dear ones.The valley of Baca that is.Remember, it means "bitterness".And I had camped out there for a few days.I was tired and was disappointed.I had expectations of grandeur on our arrival.Those expectations were cruely smited with reality;)Expectations of ease, air conditioning, sleep, and happy
- [On the mend?](https://weunformed.com/2013/05/on-mend.html) - Dear onesThank you for your prayers that you never hold back.Thank you for walking with us.(I think) Adam is on the mend.He is still weak and occasionally having reflux type responses to foodI think his stomach is just building itself back up.Poor guy lost probably 2 lbs or more during these daysRaja has been working
- [Update on the bug](https://weunformed.com/2013/05/update-on-bug.html) - Dear onesWell, this has been one of the most difficult 24 hours I can remember.BUT, it appears to be on the mend.Can I just thank you? Thank you for your prayers, words, encouragement.Thank you for just remembering us.His vomiting stopped early this morning and then there was a lot of diarrhea.Both seem to be ending
- [Greedy again;) Prayers needed](https://weunformed.com/2013/05/greedy-again-prayers-needed.html) - Dear ones,Just letting you know Adam has a stomach thing going on.Just last night we were on the porch with Adam and Raja playing the geeeetar.Today a nasty bug.Lots of vomiting earlier in the day. It has settled now. But still lots of reflux going on.Please pray.Pray against more vomitingPray against diarrhea startingPray that he
- [The other side and a VINTAGE sale](https://weunformed.com/2013/05/the-other-side-and-vintage-sale.html) - Hello all.We reached our home in the US of A.To be honest, this was the hardest time of jet lag/transition that I (Jessica) have had.I just now feel coherent enough to type this out. haha.I have been just exhausted and not feeling well.But all is now well and I feel refreshed and renewed and able
- [this is not the end](https://weunformed.com/2013/05/this-is-not-end.html) - I am listening to this lovely arrangement of divine words and dreaminess (is that a word?) this morning.Between replays, my ears rejoice on the sound of my two boys laughing.Each boys' laughter is a miracle in itself.Elliot's is deep-belly rooted and makes my heart leap with laughter as well.He is full of joy and it
- [Life has loveliness. On the pilgrimage.](https://weunformed.com/2013/05/life-has-loveliness-on-pilgrimage.html) - Life has loveliness
- [need the forces to come together...](https://weunformed.com/2013/05/need-forces-to-come-together.html) - Dear ones.I will write more later, for I am tired.But will you just join us in lifting up our little Adam and his precious body?He had a fever today again.They have been coming and going more frequently lately.We try to get the best care possible and care for him as much as we can.We try
- [strong paths...strong shoes](https://weunformed.com/2013/05/strong-pathsstrong-shoes.html) - "If God sends us strong paths, we are provided strong shoes." -Corrie ten Boom
- [Red curtains](https://weunformed.com/2013/04/red-curtains.html) - "Didi, it is like those curtains in the temple"she said in innocent wonder.Her 19 year old body masks a little girl just now having eyes open.Just now feeling a freedom to speak.And what beauty she seesWhat beauty she speaks.She does not filter what she says for the approval of man.Her heart just speaks.It criesIt exclaims.Words
- [On fundraising and the Valley of Vision](https://weunformed.com/2013/04/on-fundraising-and-valley-of-vision.html) - Dear ones,Will you excuse me?Pardon my delay in updating you all.The fundraiser did go on.Many people visited and heard Adam's story as well as many other stories and creations from the community of Jacksonville.We did not get the most votes.But a beautiful organization, started by a sweet friend, did get most of the votes and
- [Questions of men. Answers of Him.](https://weunformed.com/2013/04/questions-of-men-answers-of-him.html) - September 18, 2011 is our oldest son, Adam’s birthday.It came unexpected, to us.Husband and I were playing badminton on that muggy hot Indian evening.We did not know of the baby that was being born in our rural hospital.That precious baby, whose unformed body had been created by a good God.But, whose unformed body, puzzled us,
- [One Spark...at $25,000 possible for Adam's surgeries](https://weunformed.com/2013/04/one-sparkat-25000-possible-for-adams.html) - He who beginsHe is also faithful to finishIs He not?He so is.I know it.We have seen Him, our Abba, literally move mountains for our boy Because He longs to move His Kingdom forward the whole world overAnd remember, I also think $150,000 is A LOT of moneyAnd nearly cripples me at times to think aboutBut then
- [Lover of the light](https://weunformed.com/2013/04/lover-of-light.html) - When you see a baby born with eyes that cannot closeYou realize all the intricate detail and necessity of each part of these earthly bodiesWhen that baby becomes your sonAnd your son does not have eyelidsYou realize that the life of a baby is a life of a personAnd you KNOW it is from the
- [on siblings and such](https://weunformed.com/2013/04/so-i-would-have-never-known-today-was.html) - So I would have never known today was National Sibling Day in the US. UNTIL my precious sister, Hope(rs) posted this photo collage. It just made my day.Can I just give a shout out to you, Hopers?Thank you for staying in touch with me thru pictures and letters so well.I love you so much. This top picture...I
- [Things as They Are: because it is how He did it](https://weunformed.com/2013/04/things-as-they-are-because-it-is-how-he.html) - So.I am now writing you from the couch.The windows are openThe curtains are rising and falling with the breeze.Chai is steamingBoys are contentedly playing with one anotherThere are literally 40 monkeys outside They are bending bamboo stalks at angles I did not know possibleThe bamboo breaking long, thin shadows between falling beams of lightReflecting all sorts
- [afire with Him](https://weunformed.com/2013/04/afire-with-him.html) - Earth's crammed with heavenAnd every common bush afire with God;But only he who sees, takes off his shoes,The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries,"-elizabeth barrett browningDear one,I hope wherever you are todayYou will see the fire of His beauty Even in the most common of things. Take off your shoes. Behold His glory all around.I am thankful
- [Death in its grave](https://weunformed.com/2013/04/death-in-its-grave.html) - Yesterday was Raj's birthday.Happy birthday, loved one.Thanks for loving our boys so well.I spent some time yesterday reflectingReflecting on the past few weeks.They have been a bit busy.They have been all over the place...figuratively and literally.They have been hard.But redemptive.They have shown Him as Sustainer and Grace- giver and ProviderSo we thank Him for these
- [We are alive;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/we-are-alive.html) - Dear all,Just when I think we are in the habit of keeping you all regularly updating.And keeping myself regularly debriefing and recording this season of beauty and chaos that we are walking thru.I get real far behind.But we are here and alive and well.Adam got a nasty case of pneumonia.So we drove to the mountains
- [2 years](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/2-years.html) - Million Miles has been playing throughout my dayThinking of these 2 years of marriage that have passedAnd the seemingly million miles that have been traveled.And for a couple that had planned to not bring kiddos into the family for "at least 3 years"THIS is a comical photo...our 2 babies on our 2 year anniversary watching
- [making a habit of trusting Him](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/making-habit-of-trusting-him.html) - Maybe it was while I was up at before the sun was rising...Nursing my ElliotOrPeeling ginger, Crushing cardamom pods and grinding down the cinnamonAll for the umpteenth timeFor our morning chai (For we surely know sleep deprivation these days With one son with a tracheostomy in a real cold house with no central heatingAnd a 3 month old
- [a vapor...](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/a-vapor.html) - Today marks 4 MONTHS of Elliot's life!Truly...since Adam's entrance into our life...I have never seen just how fading time is.Just a vapor in the wind, dear ones.So do hold it tightly, yet loosely.Hold it tightly and love with all that you have in these momentsYet, hold it loosely, for He is the Author of LifeI
- [for the night ahead](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/for-night-ahead.html) - So we have 2 sick babes here.Adam with a fever and indigestion.He is started on some antibiotics.Elliot with...PINK EYE. Oh man.Do please pray that they can both rest.And heal.And that Adam does not get pink eye.That would not be good for that sweet fellow whose eyes are already such a battle.Some pictures from earlier this week
- [For all you Jax friends and family](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/for-all-you-jax-friends-and-family.html) - Jacksonville friends:The surgeon, Dr Van Aalst who stepped out in faith in major ways and is really the visionary behind Adam's medical care is sharing in JacksonvilleWhen: Sunday, 3/17/13Where: Lakewood United Methodist Church at 430 pm.He is going to share gratitude for past support and care and talk about future plans for our Adam.You are
- [He never slumbers. He never sleeps](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/behold-that-keepeth-israel-shall.html) - "Behold HeThat keepeth IsraelShall neither slumber Nor sleep."Let me share a recent storyAdam has a tracheostomy right?That is the tube that goes thru the neck, into the trachea, that he breathes thru right nowIt is temporary.And we have to suction the tracheostomy pretty frequently...Adam has a strong cough, but if it gets irritated or dry, it needs
- [the language of his hands](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/the-language-of-his-hands.html) - So Poppa Cooksey (my dad) has departed our "raj mahal" here in north India.He is currently in Delhi, worshiping with Raja, and these faces before he returns home to the USThese faces belong to some of my favorite people in all the worldSo Poppa Cooksey has left, but his love was powerful in the time
- [Just in Case](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/just-in-case.html) - Just in case you read THIS POST from yesterday.And in case you followed THIS LINK that told youWe are starting again...with the end goal of $150,000Before my baby boy can get his cleft palate repaired as well as 2 other surgeries...Just in case you were overwhelmed for me and Adam and our family...Just in case you are
- [This 6th day of March](https://weunformed.com/2013/03/this-6th-day-of-march.html) - Is a pretty chill day.It was a bit of a hectic morning.But the mountains in the distanceAnd the rays of sun fallingAnd the sound of Adam's laughterAnd the sweetness of Elliot's sleeping faceThe presence of my dadAnd the morning visit by RajaAnd the singing of Hadassah despite hard nightsRemind me that He is good.And I
- [This and That](https://weunformed.com/2013/02/so-my-dad-jessicas-is-in-town-this-week.html) - So my dad (Jessica's) is in town this weekAnd we are enjoying his presence so very much.I may not do many updates and we are headed out of town with him for the weekend.But just so you know, all is well.meeting granddad for the first time!And thank you to Mandie Joy for all that she is
- [on Adam](https://weunformed.com/2013/02/on-adam.html) - We have not done a general health update on Adam.So I do apologize for that.He has surpassed our expectations, for sure.But there have surely been difficulties as well. He is crawling like CRA-CRA- CRAZY.The boy knows how to get around.He roams this place like his own little kingdom.And he can get up on his knees to
- [5 months](https://weunformed.com/2013/02/5-months.html) - Elliot Justice Paulraj5 months old.THAT is hard to believe. Elliot- "my God is the Lord"Justice- "do justice. love mercy. walk humbly with your God" micah 6.8We love
- [pictures speak a thousand words](https://weunformed.com/2013/02/pictures-speak-thousand-words.html) - Elliot was in the process of rolling across the bed..Adam slides in his way...props up...and checks the time...and wouldnt budgemaybe my favorite...when lacking entertainment...prop a mirror in front of them...or 2;)dont really know what is happening here...except that about 1.3 seconds later...Adam was attacking my computer next to Elliot...he can move like lightningin case you
- [Vday. Lips. Faithfulness. 1 year later.](https://weunformed.com/2013/02/vday-lips-faithfulness-1-year-later.html) - So this was our update on Valentine's Day 1 year ago.Adam had just finished 8.5 hours of surgeryCleft lip repaired and a major leg surgeryWe had 3 weeks of ICU ahead of us.And a tracheostomy that would stay longer than we would have hopedHe was on a ventilator with every piece of equipment possible around
- [The Why's](https://weunformed.com/2013/02/the-whys.html) - The sun always sets straight into our bedroom window.It is near setting now. Elliot is sweetly sleeping and THIS BOY is joining me as I write to you now.In the setting rays of the sun he sits. He sits with perfect posture.He laughs and his face dimples.And it is glorious.Have you heard THIS STORY ?It is incredibleIt
- [things as they are](https://weunformed.com/2013/02/things-as-they-are.html) - dear ones.Raja just came for a fill up on black coffee. (praise Him for the bodum french press)And I am enjoying my second cup of chai.Because we need some major caffeine fixes these days.That is just how it is.That is "things as they are".I started this tradition a few months back...just writing out the dailies.Because
- [HABITual TRUST](https://weunformed.com/2013/02/habitual-trust.html) - I guess it was nearly midnight on Christmas EveOur little 3 foot tree’s lights were twinkling in the window’s reflection.We were heading for bedWhen thru the night’s darkness “there arose such a clatter”…Not the St. Nicolas clatter we sing about thoughAt first I thought it was just another wedding reception…The nerving music which often goes
- [Thank you;) And a celebration;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/01/thank-you-and-celebration.html) - Dear allMy favorite 2 shots from the week...Thank you so much for your prayers for Adam. It has been an exhausting few days...not gonna lie..but each day's tapestry has been threaded with sustaining grace. Adam has been up a lot itching, rubbing his head against the bed frame (until we get to him). But he
- [please pray;)](https://weunformed.com/2013/01/please-pray.html) - Dear ones...So we are celebrating 4 months of ELLIOT JUSTICE PAULRAJ todayAnd I have lots of pictures and love to share in that area...But I will post that tomorrowUntil then...please pray for Adam todayHe has some new skin lesions and a rash that we cannot figure outIt is discouraging and a bit overwhelming.We just want
- [Reflections](https://weunformed.com/2013/01/reflections.html) - A recent heartbreaking and brutal crime in Delhi, India has sparked much conversation about women, safety, rights, crime, rape, etc. I am praying that a problem that has long been present here...thru being brought into the LIGHT...will see some alleviation This article says so much.After reading it...I remembered this that I wrote a while back.Actually, it is dated
- [You Are Not Alone](https://weunformed.com/2013/01/you-are-not-alone.html) - "You are not Alone" is the title of a blog series started by a friend, Mandie Joy, out of South Carolina.Her heart is to connect people going thru "painful times" so that we can be an encouragement to one another.Vulnerability is powerful and needed, I believe.And the power of story is significant.You can find her
- [Remember](https://weunformed.com/2013/01/remember.html) - The ability to remember is such a gift.For when we remember, we see things as they are.We see His handiwork that we may have not seen when things were all unfolding.I love this by Clive Staples himself:“Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is different....”Often times, our
- [](https://weunformed.com/2012/12/so-i-did-not-do-timely-update-regarding.html) - So I did not do a timely update regarding this, but on Thanksgiving Day, my hometown of Jacksonville, FL featured Adam and our little family on the cover of the "Florida Times Union".You can read an online portion hereTo say we were beyond honored and doubly humbled, would even still be an understatement.It happened last year
- [Disability Day](https://weunformed.com/2012/12/disability-day.html) - This is Disability Week and yesterday was "Disability Day".Since Abba is so good and intimate, 3 weeks after Adam's birth, we were transferred to a hospital in the North of India which as a program for children with "special needs"."Anugrah"Grace.That is what it means.That is what the program is called.Beautiful, huh?So, although there a many
- [Sunday Sunday](https://weunformed.com/2012/12/sunday-sunday.html) - (First let me say I am sorry to all whom I have not responded to…phone calls, emails, fb messages…we have been without internet since the day before Thanksgiving…then it was "repaired"…but, alas, it is still not working. It comes for about an hour every 3 days. So I have written a few emails and blog
- [A Mother's Treasures](https://weunformed.com/2012/11/a-mothers-treasures.html) - This is the precious journal my mom, Mother Teresa, to me, gave me after Raja and I got married.It is full of her heart cries that had rung in the 24 years of raising me, her oldest of 5.The woman is an incredible woman.I am humbled that I was mothered by one such as her.She
- [Expanding Tents...on Holy Ground](https://weunformed.com/2012/11/expanding-tentson-holy-ground.html) - So I cannot get this story off my mind nor my heart.I debated sharing it on our blog.For 2 reasons.But Abba Father has silenced both of those reasons with His voice.And after celebrating Orphan Sunday, I cannot keep quiet.Firstly, the fact that I do not know this family personally was a reason.Surely, they may think I am
- [orphan sunday](https://weunformed.com/2012/11/orphan-sunday.html) - So it is not really an appropriate time for me to write a blog.It is the middle of the night.We are finishing our Sunday here, on this side of the world.This Sabbath to remember orphans. I am awake nursing our new little one.Listening to the sweet pitches of his breathing and feeling his little body rise
- [1 year & officially a PAULRAJ](https://weunformed.com/2012/11/1-year-officially-paulraj.html) - Tonight we shall have a party.I shall bake a cake.And we shall celebrate.Worship.And reJOYce.We almost overlooked it.Amidst the piles of laundry.andThe seeing of patients.andThe bathing of babies.andThe changing of dressings.andThe making of food.andThe cutting of vegetables.We almost overlooked it.But He reminded us.Sometime this morning.When I was beginning to feed Elliot.Drinking reheated coffee...made extra strong to
- [1 month with Eli & a birthing story](https://weunformed.com/2012/10/1-month-with-eli-birthing-story.html) - * I dont know why some pictures are multiplied on the blog...I am sorry for the inconvenience(So...I am a bit distraught as I start to write this because my computer has crashed...and all my pictures of new little Eli are on it...as well as 4 years of memories in photos and quite the library of
- [happy birthday adam!](https://weunformed.com/2012/10/dear-adam-happy-birthday-it-bewilders.html) - Dear Adam,Happy Birthday!It bewilders me to think it has been over a year since you, little Adam, came into our life!Each day you live is truly a tangible picture of His sovereign grace, His perfect plan, and His desire to take the foolish things of this world to shame the wise. We were told you
- [September. September](https://weunformed.com/2012/10/september-september.html) - Greetings to all. It seems that September is always going to be a significant month in the life of our family.It was September of last year that we met our little Adam for the first time and Abba Father used him to redefine our lives and our understanding of Love Divine.Then September of this year,
- [Free yourself from the chains on your neck](https://weunformed.com/2012/09/free-yourself-from-chains-on-your-neck.html) - “Free yourself from the chains on your neck, O captive Daughter of Zion”.The prophet Isaiah scribed these words many moons ago, as the Spirit breathed them to pass. And that same Spirit sung them over me this morning.This Sabbath morning.The cool of the Sabbath dawn was soon swallowed up by a stifling and hot day.Metaphorical,
- ["a good God is everywhere"](https://weunformed.com/2012/08/a-good-god-is-everywhere.html) - Whew. So last week came to a close. And this week has been surprising with new steps for Adam. He is laughing more than ever, crawling more than ever, and has figured out how to make sounds thru his tracheostomy (which excites him more than anything else).It has been beautiful to see him recover._____________________________________________________________But, let's just
- [sorry to keep you waiting...](https://weunformed.com/2012/08/sorry-to-keep-you-waiting.html) - just so everyone is aware...Adam has recovered well.We ended up staying in Musoorie thru the week to finish Adam's IV antibiotics.We could have moved to oral antibiotics, but the risk of not catching all the sickness was too much of a risk.We have had an amazing pediatrician caring for him.We left the hospital on Tuesday
- [adam and pneumonia/ in need of prayer](https://weunformed.com/2012/08/adam-and-pneumonia-in-need-of-prayer.html) - hello to all.I just wanted to ask you all to join us in asking Abba Father to bring healing to adam's little body.We traveled 50 km north of our home to a city called Musoorie (beautiful place...you should google it;) ) to spend 5 days here.Mainly, Raja needed to be here on Monday to start
- [things as they are; take 2](https://weunformed.com/2012/08/things-as-they-are_8.html) - Did I tell you about my embarrassing moment the other day?Sometimes, privacy is relative in my present day life.And I had a surprise visitor not too long ago (a female and friend...no worries) and was unaware of it.So our bedroom door was open and I was changing in the back corner while talking to Adam.In walks in
- ["things as they are"](https://weunformed.com/2012/08/things-as-they-are.html) - It is 1026 pm here in our little abode in the north of India. There is a cool breeze blowing thru as I munch on some glorious dark chocolate and Adam is sitting next to me punching a plastic bag. Yes, that is his new favorite toy. Do not be fooled into baby einstein purchases...just
- [Hadassah Update](https://weunformed.com/2012/07/hadassah-update.html) - Many of you have been lifting up precious Hadassah faithfully in the weeks since I wrote about her.If you do not recall her, you can be updated here.She is one of many women in India who have walked thru depths of difficulties that I at times cannot fathom.The statistics are many and the brokenness is rampant.It
- [video and pictures](https://weunformed.com/2012/07/check-out-my-baby-boy-so-this-is-pretty.html) - Video;)***the video link is not currently working...i will try to fix it. sorry all;) im bad at this stuffadamSo this is a pretty entertaining video (for patient ones who have some time on their hands, that is;...the best part is the first 10 seconds).This is Adam's life about 1/2 the day.He is definitely VERY mobile
- [Important praise to share](https://weunformed.com/2012/07/important-praise-to-share.html) - Sorry that I neglected to share this in yesterday's post:All of Adams sickness has resolved.No chicken pox, and miraculously, minimal scars!Eye is back to normal.Adam has been jumping, playing, and laughing like crazy.I will try to upload some videos soon.He has been coughing a bit lately and needing more humidification...if you can lift that up;)At
- [the One of all comfort](https://weunformed.com/2012/07/the-one-of-all-comfort.html) - There have been many times since September 18th, 2011, that I have been led to deeper pits of questioning.Asking Him.Longing to understand.Why He allows suffering.Why He allows bartsocas papas.Why He permits babies to have no eyelids.Why? Why? Why?Why such injustice?I needed/need answers that are understandable to my finite mind.My temporary vision.My mourning heart.Just like His
- [and being poxed by chickens is kinda hard.](https://weunformed.com/2012/07/and-being-poxed-by-chickens-is-kinda.html) - I wish you were here with me as I write this.Actually, if you were here, I would not be writing. I would fix you a steaming cup of ginger- spiced chai,offer you (ladies) a head scarf, like my own, to tie back any annoyance that humidity and indian heat may be creating for the lovely locks.Then
- [poxed by chickens](https://weunformed.com/2012/07/poxed-by-chickens.html) - So our Little Bird, Adam, has been out with the chicken pox for 3 days now.Do remember him in your talks with the One on High;)He is doing quite well...just crusted over in Calamine lotions, with an occasional need for Tylenol, and about twice a day spits up a bit of his feedings.The vaccination is
- [reality](https://weunformed.com/2012/06/it-is-saturday-night-and-4-precious.html) - It is Saturday night and 4 precious souls from Asha Mission just left after a week of greatness here staying with us. He reminded me of His great love for them and how He is surely weaving eternal glory into each of their little lives. Though they have walked some hard roads in their young
- [on earth as it is in heaven.](https://weunformed.com/2012/06/on-earth-as-it-is-in-heaven.html) - Those are the words my heart has been reciting the past few days since my last train ride with a friend, Amanda, to Delhi.More on that later though.It is a late night but I just want to say that all is well on the homefront.My hands are a bit tired at the moment.A day spent
- [Prayer need for new friend, "Hadassah"](https://weunformed.com/2012/06/prayer-need-for-new-friend-hadassah.html) - Hello all;)2 days in a row...this is exciting stuff!I just wanted to ask you all to be lifting up a new friend, and "sister", tonight.We just met her today. Raja brought her home for lunch after meeting her in the hospital. I have been trying to think of a creative Hindi name to substitute for her
- [update from the RAJ mahal;)](https://weunformed.com/2012/06/update-from-raj-mahal.html) - Forgot about that witty title given to our home by the one and only Shem Miller;)But yes...this will be a few pictures from recent happenings.It is a Thursday evening. Raja had a good day at work, started teaching an intro to Psychiatry class to Residents here which is always exciting for him (teaching and psychiatry
- [Videos of Adam;)](https://weunformed.com/2012/05/adam-and-i-have-had-some-lovely.html) - Adam and I have had some lovely mornings together recently (save yesterday when he got sick again...but he is on the mend;) Click on each of the following and you can enjoy 3 videos of Adam and his love for life;)1. adam in the mornings (video one)...notice how he stops playing the piano when the music box
- [journey on...](https://weunformed.com/2012/05/so-this-post-is-originally-on-our.html) - So this post is originally on our original family blog: http://soundsofthesun.wordpress.comSince our family is expanding...our journey is not solely "baby Adam's journey". So I am going to try to post reflective posts on our family site as well as general family updates. Then Adam updates will be on here. No fret though..many more people know about
- [Moved in and Adam is ok](https://weunformed.com/2012/05/moved-in-and-adam-is-ok.html) - Hello all.So we just got internet at home and it is quite speedy;) But I have felt quite disconnected, acutely in these past 3 days because we have never felt such a desperate need for prayer and wanted to share with you all.We got to Herbertpur on Friday afternoon. Travel went well getting here and
- [on the journey back...](https://weunformed.com/2012/05/on-journey-back.html) - It is 1230am on Wednesday night here in Delhi, India.Jet lagged we are. We 3 slept 6 hours this afternoon, and are therefore wide awake now.The plane journey went well...so much favor from Him above was showered on us.All is grace and for that we are thankful.We had to check 9 bags and 90% of
- [That didn't go well...](https://weunformed.com/2012/05/that-didnt-go-well.html) - Hello all you who still stay tuned here:) I clearly did not follow thru very well in updating this more often.All I can say is we are pretty much consumed with packing and organizing all of Adam'sedical supplies and other items to be able to be taken to India. We are grateful for your support and grave
- [enter His gates with thanksgiving in our hearts!](https://weunformed.com/2012/04/enter-his-gates-with-thanksgiving-in.html) - So, I have made an internal commitment to self to write here.More often.MUCH more often than I have been the past 2 months.Especially now as we are headed back to mother India...We want all of you, the world over, to feel connected and aware of all that is happening.For so many of you have been
- [swallow test SUCCESS](https://weunformed.com/2012/04/swallow-test-success.html) - we are rejoicing this week!Adam's swallow test went smoothly and with ease! Thank you all for your prayers and encouragement! He sat up in that little chair and swallowed everything they put in his mouth! We have now fed him some baby bananas and pears as well as bottle fed formula...he did not love that
- [swallow test](https://weunformed.com/2012/04/swallow-test.html) - at 8am Adam is going in for a "swallow test"...if he passes he can progress to eat foods by mouth (baby foods, oatmeal, etc). this would be a huge blessing...it would keep him fuller longer, he would taste, and many other good things. please lift up his little mouth and esophagus;)
- [tomorrow](https://weunformed.com/2012/04/tomorrow.html) - Hello all.Just to notify:Tomorrow at 2pm Adam will go under anesthesia to have all the sutures and dressings removed from his surgery last week. They will also take out his broviac line (IV line that has been in place since November).Also, the eye doctors will take a look at his eyes. Last week went really
- [stories of Him, not us.](https://weunformed.com/2012/04/stories-of-him-not-us.html) - So it is Wednesday evening. The heat of the day was quenched by an afternoon rain that has cooled down this North Carolina home. Adam is discharged! Yes, that is right, he is out of the hospital and back at our home in Chapel Hill;) He is doing quite well, swinging happily in his swing,
- [Adam Update](https://weunformed.com/2012/04/adam-update.html) - Adam is out of surgery and is doing well. He will be in the hospital for a couple of days. More to come. Thank you for your continued prayers!
- [surgery tomorrow](https://weunformed.com/2012/04/surgery-tomorrow.html) - These are some fun family pictures from the last lil bit in Florida.We are back in Chapel Hill this evening.Tomorrow at 730 am, Adam is having the little cyst on his forehead removed. It should be a 5 hour or so surgery. Please lift the little one up.We put our trust in the great Physician, the One
- [MRI and ' no longer the baby!'](https://weunformed.com/2012/03/mri-and-no-longer-baby.html) - Thank you all for your encouragement and prayers for the MRI.Good news: the cyst is not extended into the brain. VERY GOOD.It is just superficial and will be removed completely on this Tuesday, the 3rd.Please continue to pray for that;)Also:A new one on the way;)Adam could not handle another year alone....So Abba Father has authored
- [why it has been so long](https://weunformed.com/2012/03/why-it-has-been-so-long.html) - Update: We do not have results of MRI yet, since it finished near the end of the work day on Friday.BUT we know that surgery is scheduled for April 3rd. They will remove the cyst then and we will hope and pray for a quick recovery.For our return ticket to India is May 7th.Please pray for
- [Thursday morning](https://weunformed.com/2012/03/thursday-morning.html) - It is a a glorious Thursday morning.The sun in Jacksonville is piercing the atmosphere and setting aglow this coastal city.A delicious breakfast of grits, eggs, and cinnamon raisin toast has been consumed.Adam is sleeping.Dad is packing.Mom is sharing.We just found out 2 days back that we have to get back to Chapel Hill for an
- [it has been a while....](https://weunformed.com/2012/03/it-has-been-while.html) - Hello to all.Mom Jessica here... I just wanted to share that we are all doing well.We are in Florida enjoying family and friends for a few weeks.We will be back in Chapel Hill on April 5th for appointments and an MRI to look at the cyst on Adam's forehead. After that, the decision will be
- [discharge and some reflections](https://weunformed.com/2012/03/discharge-and-some-reflections.html) - We are out of the hospital! We have been discharged since Thursday night, we just have not had a free moment to take the effort to share it on this site, and I am so sorry for that.Adam is doing well. He definitely lost some weight during these past 21 days in the hospital and
- [A few updates](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/few-updates.html) - First of all, a reminder of the amazing book that is now being sold for Adam: Adam the Elephant!!! Just to refresh you, a dear friend of ours in Jacksonville, Jennifer Norton, and her son, Daniel Norton, wrote the book and hand painted each of the pages.It is a beautiful story that speaks of Truth and
- [friday friday](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/friday-friday.html) - So Adam had a bit more time in the OR this morning.It ended up being about 1.5 hours I think.Basically, they had to revise the sutures on his leg incisions from the 14th surgery.All went well.He is off the ventilator (has been for 2 days) and just has a little oxygen "blow by" to help
- [how ever is he?](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/how-ever-is-he.html) - I truly apologize for not doing a better day by day update on Adam.I will try to be better.It is just that- often times we do not have good internet here at the hospital and then I it is not the top of my priority list when we get back to our "home" in the
- [check in](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/check-in.html) - So Adam is still resting well, on the ventilator, waiting for Monday.He is relaxed, has piano music playing, and no signs of any complications.The plan is still to let him attempt to breathe on Monday on his own (again in the OR so if any problems happen, help is nearby...).If he is not able to
- [about the intubation...](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/about-intubation.html) - update: extubation did not go as well as expected. Due to the new closure of his previously very open face, his mouth and airway are a lot smaller and were too difficult for Adam to breathe thru. They struggled to reintubate him (put a breathing tube back in) but did finally get the breathing tube back in
- [Adam's progress](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/adams-progress.html) - I realize I did not post yesterday, and I am sorry.Adam is continuing to recover well.Swelling is going down and he is increasing in his frustration of having so many tubes attached to him.They plan to extubate (which means remove the breathing tube) this morning.He has been on breathing tubes/ventilator since surgery.This is mainly because
- [valentines day update](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/valentines-day-update.html) - Hey there.Surgery is over.8.5 hours long;)Adam did well.He will be in the PICU tonight.We are waiting for the nurse to take us back to see him.Thank you so much for your prayers.A local news station ran this today....http://abclocal.go.com/wtvd/video?id=8543877 Thank you all for your prayers throughout the day...
- [a new lip for new kisses on valentines day!](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/new-lip-for-new-kisses-on-valentines.html) - "Then it was said among the nations, 'the Lord has done great things for them!' The Lord has done great things for us and we are FILLED WITH JOY"david's 126th chapter. verses 2 &3I spent some time today remembering...Adam's first night home...his typical position...you can see the absence of eyelidslook how tiny he was! his whole
- [how to get a book in Jax](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/how-to-get-book-in-jax.html) - ****So 1000 copies of Adam the Elephant are off the press and ready to be in your hands!1. For you Jacksonville dwellers, if you would like a book, please email at the following address:adamtheelephant@gmail.com 2. For those of you who live in Chapel Hill, please email:adampaulraj@gmail.com3. For those of you in Tallahassee, Katie Mears is
- [In Him there is no darkness at all.](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/adam-in-hospital.html) - First of all: The BOOKS ARE PRINTED!"Adam the Elephant" has been printed. We have 1000 copies to sell and distribute.We would love for you to have one!For out of towners..there is a way to purchase on eBay below:http://www.ebay.com/itm/Adam-Elephant-/170781159724?pt=US_Childrens_Books&hash=item27c359b12c#ht_1266wt_72 If you live in Jacksonville, Tallahassee, or Chapel Hill, we have ways to distribute them in person.That
- [With a laugh, baby Adam takes the next step in series of surgeries | jacksonville.com](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/with-laugh-baby-adam-takes-next-step-in.html) - With a laugh, baby Adam takes the next step in series of surgeries | jacksonville.com
- [just so you know;)](https://weunformed.com/2012/02/just-so-you-know.html) - Feb 14th, a day we earth dwellers mark as a day for love, our baby boy is getting his cleft lip repaired. He will also be having some operations done on his legs.Please petition that he can be well rested and ready for surgery and that Divine hands guide each surgeon and other involved with
- [adam's first laugh!](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/adams-first-laugh.html) - Today was an exciting day for us...Adam reveled in a moment with his dad in the waiting room of the clinic.And he chuckled for a good 60 seconds or so.I wish each of you had been there to see all the exclamations and laughs around the room in response!Brooke, Lori, Savannah, Raja, and I each
- [no event too common place for His glory to not be seen.](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/no-event-too-common-place-for-his-glory.html) - “There is no event so common place but that God is present within it, always hidden, always leaving you room to recognize Him or not to recognize Him." (Fredrick Buechner)This season of life has definitely been one where we have nearly drowned in His holiness and His glory.What a tragedy it would be to credit
- [who's a 'beta'?](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/whos-beta.html) - Is this not a beautiful picture?For those of you who have seen my son, our son, Adam, he did not have eyelids the first 10, maybe 12, weeks of his life.It has led to a total of 6? surgeries where amazing doctors and specialist surgeons have attempted to create eyelids.And even moreso, it has led
- [thankful](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/thankful.html) - "We thank You, God, we thank You— Your Name is our favorite word" Psalm 75:1thankful today. adam's eyelids look better than they ever have before. and we can see his little eye muscles twitching. continue to pray! He is good and is at work weaving this little body back together!
- [another day](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/another-day.html) - Thank you to those of you who continue to read this. For we are surely still in just the beginning of Adam's journey and treasure each of you on it with us. Truly.I would like to request some specific prayer requests for Adam:1. Most of you are aware of the fact that last week was
- [1st day post op](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/1st-day-post-op.html) - Hello to all. It is 11pm on Wed night. I (Jessica) am back at our home resting because my precious, loving, and handsome;) husband has sent me back 2 nights in a row to rest with my dear momma. That means sleepless nights for him at the hospital. Humbles me to be loved like that...Anyways,
- [out of surgery](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/out-of-surgery.html) - (Jessica here)Adam is out of surgery. Everything has been reported to have gone well.His eyes will be patched up for a few days and Friday they will plan to remove stitches placed.Raja is with him now and I will switch with him shortly.He will be admitted for a few days most likely.Thanks for your prayers.
- [Little Bird](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/little-bird-by-weepies.html) - Here is the song of the day for Adam;) Shout out to Rebecca Senior;)He is going into surgery as I type. No major complications..the surgery was just moved early in order for all the surgeons to be able to participate.The operation is fixing the eyelids, which have turned "inside out" a little bit.Then they will
- ["chart and compass come from Thee, Savior pilot me"](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/chart-and-compass-come-from-thee-savior.html) - Update on appts:We met with ophthalmology, plastic surgery, and pediatric surgery on Tuesday. A day full of pretty good reports;)Cornea's look well, eyelid may need a revision in February, skin above eyes has healed well, and feeding tube was replaced in Adam's stomach.Thank you so much for your prayers.Plans still remain for surgery next Wed, Jan
- [on the road again](https://weunformed.com/2012/01/on-road-again.html) - It is about 10pm on Sunday nightWe just had a precious visit from friends from Tallahassee who came to visit. The Diemers have been a huge support to me (Jessica) for nearly 5 or so years now. They have precious hearts for our Lord. Jeanie always refreshes me and I love their daughter who is
- [Sorry for the absence...](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/sorry-for-absence.html) - We hope each of you had wonderful Christmas with friends and family.We have been out of the computer world for a while as we have had some time to be with dear ones, and most of all, reflect on our Lord's great Love, these past few days.A few updates though:Chapel Hill has been doing a
- [Schedule update](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/schedule-update.html) - It is a beautiful overcast evening here in Maggie Valley.We have been so blessed to spend a week up here with my family in a large wooden cabin surrounded by beautiful mountains, a perfect view from the hot tub;)It has been restful and rejuvenating.Thank you for your prayers.We had a follow up appt yesterday with
- [Corneal Transplant a Success](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/corneal-transplant-success.html) - Thank you all for your prayers last night. The surgery went very well and they believe it is a more permanent solution to a problem that would not be solved thru temporary measures (ie-glue). We feel quite confident about this.Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. Truly thank you.We were blessed with friends bringing words
- [This isnt a joke...another L eye surgery](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/this-isnt-jokeanother-l-eye-surgery.html) - So all was going well this morning and we were anticipating a 1pm departure to Maggie Valley, NC for a week with my (Jessica) family. It was going to be a lovely drive, we had music picked out, Adam bundled up, and all the bags packed. I went to start a shower and Raja calls
- [i should be silenced](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/i-should-be-silenced.html) - Surgery last night went well.Adam’s left eyelid is sutured almost completely shut due to the ulcer that continued to worsen as the cornea was exposed.The glue was replaced and the contact lens placed.For 3-4 weeks it will be so.We have a meeting with plastic surgery tomorrow to discuss the skin grafts.We will keep you posted
- [Adam Update](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/adam-update.html) - Adam did well in surgery last night. In fact, he and Raja are napping right now. Adam's left eye has been sutured closed and will remain so for about four weeks. We will know in the next week when Adam will have eyelid surgery. We believe it will be in the next two to three
- [surgery tonight](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/surgery-tonight.html) - Just to update you...Adam is in surgery at the moment.The L eye had some pretty severe damage starting today....after the surgery last week, there have been some complications and they had to go back in today to redo the glue in the cornea, replace the contact lenses, and completely suture the eyelid on the L
- [little bird adam](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/little-bird-adam.html) - So it is an early Saturday morning.I, mother, am wide awake and the boys are sound asleep.This has been one of the more difficult weeks we have had. Let's just be honest. But oh what a faithful heavenly Father we have.He is always making beauty from ashes.And He is always proving faithful and loving.And still I
- [today](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/today.html) - So we did have surgery today.Basically, a third or so of his eye was exposed from the eyelid being pulled up by the skin grafts. This caused the previous ulcer to reopen. Not good. I think every eye doctor on duty today saw Adam. It was quite a hustled and stress filled morning.Surgery was at
- [Lord, give us strength. Unexpected surgery.](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/lord-give-us-strength-unexpected.html) - all was peaceful...night of discharge.Hello to all. Well we have had a wonderful few days out of the hospital.However, today we came in for an eye checkup and we are in need of prayer.The eyelids have shrunken a little back (normal occurence after skin grafting) which has left the lower half of the cornea more
- [discharged!](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/discharged.html) - Taken by the amazing Maria VanAalst who has also become a dear sister and friend.We are back from surgeries. We were welcomed with the amazing Maria taking photos for us, a new dear friend, Rachel playing piano for us, and the ONE AND ONLY Dana Senior bringing us wine and tasty food to feast on.
- [UNC doctors help baby with severe birth defects | abc11.com](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/unc-doctors-help-baby-with-severe-birth.html) - UNC doctors help baby with severe birth defects | abc11.comThe link we put up wasn't working. Just click the new link above.
- [shaming the wise](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/shaming-wise.html) - One of my favorites. This is me with Adam in Aizawl, Mizoram. This is the precious woman who hosted us during the adoption process. I absolutely adore her.This is an email I wrote a few months ago as we continued to hear God answer prayers for Adam. As I am writing out prayers this morning
- [discharge!](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/discharge.html) - We are 99% sure we are being discharged from the hospital today!Usually they would keep us a little longer but after seeing Raja and I caring for Adam, they feel confident that all that is being done here will be done at home well.We are just waiting to hear from the eye doctors on if
- [day 3 post surgeries](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/day-3-post-surgeries.html) - This was featured on ABC 11 on Raleigh/Durham stations today:http://abclocal.go.com/wtvd/video?id=8452929And the church we have been attending who has been a great support published this today:http://www.icontact-archive.com/mUFmOW52D7AbVi-Mx0HWgneZTqtz99MU?w=3Is it really Friday? My goodness time has flown. I am feeling much better (Jessica, that is). Raja had a pretty good night with Adam. He only slept 3 hours but
- [thankful for community](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/thankful-for-community.html) - While we have been staying with the wonderful Senior family of Chapel Hill, we have been attending their church, Christ Community Church. They recently published in their newsletter about Adam. We are so thankful for their pastors, elders, and members who have been visiting us and caring for us so well!http://www.icontact-archive.com/mUFmOW52D7AbVi-Mx0HWgneZTqtz99MU?w=3
- [adam day 2 post op](https://weunformed.com/2011/12/adam-day-2-post-op.html) - I (Jessica) am writing this from our little temporary home in Chapel Hill.I have been a bit sick all day, since last night, and have a sick nasty voice at the moment.It is hard to be sick, to be honest.But I am trying to be faithful and restful with the time.I did have the time
- [day 1 after surgery](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/day-1-after-surgery.html) - Hello to all. It is a frigid North Carolina evening here. Raja and I had a wonderful night of sleep and much needed time together. Thank you for those prayers. We came in this morning and have been here all day. In the morning we were told Adam was breathing over the ventilator, and by
- [Donors give $118,000 for Baby Adam's surgeries | jacksonville.com](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/donors-give-118000-for-baby-adams.html) - Donors give $118,000 for Baby Adam's surgeries | jacksonville.comClick the link above to see an update by Kelli Palka that ran in today's Florida Times-Union.
- [humbled](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/humbled.html) - Hello to all. We are amazed. Absolutely amazed at all the encouragement we are receiving.God is so good. So faithful.We had wonderful friends around us all day.The surgeries went well. Please pray for his eyes to heal and eyesight to remain well;)He is in the ICU on lots of monitors for the night. He is
- [Adam update 2.5](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/adam-update-25.html) - Adam's surgery is over and he is doing great! Jessica and Raja are with him now.
- [Surgery Update 2](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/surgery-update-2.html) - This is a picture of me with Adam last night. Last night our baby had no eyelids. Today has gone smoothly. We have had precious friends with us throughout the day. Including my friend Brooke, the wife of the family we are staying with, a new friend Maria working on a photojournalism project, a new friend
- [Surgery Update 1](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/surgery-update-1.html) - Adam is well into surgery.Surgery may be a total of 7-8 hours.Adam is doing well.The different specialists involved will do the surgeries in stages.Urology was the first procedure.The Urologist has come out of surgery to meet with us."No surprises" he said and everything is going well.They were considering doing a Cystoscopy which is looking inside
- [Adam Update](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/adam-update.html) - Thank you so much for your continued prayers.Adam is in surgery! We expect him to be out of surgery around 4 or 5 p.m.We will provide updates as soon as possible.Please continue to pray for Adam, Jessica and Raja, and the incredible medical team working on Adam as this is being written. God placed each and
- [take off your shoes. i am convinced that this is holy ground.](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/take-off-your-shoes-i-am-convinced-that.html) - We have it! Guys, all $100,000 is there!mcdonalds $1 icecream in the back of the minivan, loaned from the precious Patton's, to celebrate! That means that surgeries (step 1) can happen tomorrow!(Few more surgeries ahead...but we have seen God work miracles thus far and will continue to trust Him for the future)Definitely only He could do
- [Praise God from whom all blessings flow!](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/praise-god-from-whom-all-blessings-flow.html) - Adam's surgery is scheduled for 7:30 a.m. tomorrow (Tuesday)! Please pray for Adam, Jessica and Raja and the medical teams.
- [thankful...baby adam fund update](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/update.html) - Adam with dad this morning. Doesn't he look so good?? He is cooing and following our voices these days. So fun!"As he looked up, Jesus saw the rich putting their gifts into the temple treasury. He also saw a poor widow put in two very small copper coins.'I tell you the truth,' he said, 'this poor
- [perhaps the Lord will act in our behalf](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/perhaps-lord-will-act-in-our-behalf.html) - Adam's mom here.It is a chilly Sunday evening here in Chapel Hill. Adam is doing wonderfully. He has started cooing like crazy, following our voices, and we are convinced laughing (by the look in his eyes). His appetite is increasing and he is being loved by so many.It was so wonderful to surprise my family
- [Many are fighting for baby's future - Local/State - NewsObserver.com](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/many-are-fighting-for-babys-future.html) - Many are fighting for baby's future - Local/State - NewsObserver.comPlease click the link above for an article about Adam that ran today in the Raleigh News and Observer.
- [so much to be thankful for](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/so-much-to-be-thankful-for.html) - Mom, dad, and I just returned from GA where we went to be with family for Thanksgiving.We are so sorry we could not update more while we were gone, but to be honest, it was nice to have a break.Just to update you all:We do not know how much money has been raised yet. So
- [Jacksonville couple saw a child created in God's image, not multiple deformities | jacksonville.com](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/jacksonville-couple-saw-child-created.html) - Jacksonville couple saw a child created in God's image, not multiple deformities | jacksonville.comThis beautiful story about Adam was written by Kelli Palka for the Florida Times-Union. Click the link above to read it.
- [Hoping for a holiday miracle](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/hoping-for-holiday-miracle.html) - Hoping for a holiday miracleActionNews in Jacksonville, Florida ran this story about Adam. Click the link above to watch the video and read the story.
- [donating online](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/donating-online.html) - Just a reminder, online giving is possible at:https://medicalfoundationofnc.org/babyadam
- [Donating to the Baby Adam Fund Online](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/donating-to-baby-adam-fund-online.html) - Hi All,Thank you for following Baby Adam's journey! For those who have asked how they can help Baby Adam receive the critical surgeries he needs, we have an update. You can now give online to the Baby Adam Fund. As of today, you can go online to http://www.medicalfoundationofnc.org/ under “Giving” at the top of the
- [My Story](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/my-story.html) - written by Gerri BoyceSome of you had asked for a little more information about me.I was born at Burrows Memorial Christian Hospital in Alipur, in the state of Assam, India, on September 18. I weighed a whopping 5.3 pounds! My birth parents were not able to take care of me. Dr. Raja and Jessica Paulraj,
- [In the Night.](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/in-night_21.html) - It is 420 am. Adam is a bit hmmm….let’s say irritable. Basically just wanting to be held constantly for now 6 hours. But I am tired. What a struggle huh? Struggle of every mother and father I imagine. Isn’t that me though, in the face of Jesus? Don’t I kick and scream because I just
- [My first dose of anesthesia was a success!](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/my-first-dose-of-anesthesia-was-success.html) - Hello, world. So I just experienced my first dose of general anesthesia. This was in order for me to get a central venous catheter that will help me be able to get IV fluids and antibiotics at home so we dont have to stay in the hospital any more.We did not expect it to happen
- [Adam update from November 18th](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/adam-update-from-november-18th.html) - Well I do believe it is time for an update.(Adam here)My mom is going to write most of this. But just so you all know, I am feeling great! My fever has been gone nearly 2 days, my hemoglobin increased after getting a small blood transfusion, I am more active than ever, and there are beautiful
- [Day Two of My Hospital Admission](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/day-two-of-my-hospital-admission.html) - So it is day 2 of my admission in the hospital. I am feeling a lot better. Due to a few of my physical defects, infection is a high risk. However, after some strong antibiotics and even a blood transfusion, I feel a lot better.I am hoping that by next week I will start the
- [How you can help](https://weunformed.com/2011/11/how-you-can-help.html) - Thursday, November 17, 2011 9:38 PM, EST Many of you have been asking how to help in this process.UNC is in the process of raising the necessary funds needed for the operations.If you or someone you know is interested in financially helping, please send checks to the following:The Medical Foundation of North Carolina880 MLK Jr.

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