We are out of the hospital! We have been discharged since Thursday night, we just have not had a free moment to take the effort to share it on this site, and I am so sorry for that.
Adam is doing well. He definitely lost some weight during these past 21 days in the hospital and his muscles have gotten weak…but we are fattening him up and doing little exercises here and there.
We are happy to share a photo with you today of his new little lip;)
|my favorite! he is still loving his lights!|
If you can pray for Adam to continue to wean well from all his pain meds that would be good.
And that we can work up to sleeping well thru the night again.
Other than that, we are just enjoying cuddling and loving on him since being out of the hospital.
Regarding future plans:
Adam may have one more surgery where they remove a little sebaceous cyst on his forehead. (I’d love to pray for the complete disappearance of that cyst and no need for surgery!). They will do an MRI first to look at it more closely.
We are set to return to India (all of us) on May 7th. If you can pray for all the logistics and such for us, that would be great;)
I have been up since 6, when I relieved my precious husband who had fallen asleep in the rocking chair. Adam had woken up at 3 and not really been able to be calmed apart from being held. He always loves being held, but usually falls asleep quickly in the bed apart from us. But not this morning;)
And as my exhaustion threatens to overtake me, I choose to use this time to share with you some lessons recently learned.
<A Mother’s Struggles>
A few weeks ago (in the midst of hospitalization, learning of the need for a trach, etc), I had a breakdown. Raja was near and Abba Father was present throughout, and for that I am thankful. It was just a tearful frustration and confusion and questioning. Before His throne. But I was voicing it all towards Raja at the end.
“Raja, why did He design it this way?”
“Why couldn’t Adam be a healthy little baby, born to a family that for some reason, didn’t want him, he was abandoned, left without much earthly hope or assurance, and He led us to adopt him? It would have still been a great story, right? Child abandoned, we felt His eternal love compel us to act, we adopted him, He provided miraculously for every need, and onwards. That would have also been a great story. Why did He allow Adam to be born with so much physical suffering? And why is it so hard for us and for him at times? It still could have been a great story even if it did not include all these medical struggles”
And as the Spirit spoke thru my husband, I was brought low, where I needed to be.
In awestruck worship to my King and His heavenly design that surpasses my understanding.
“…Jess, He did not design this to be a great story. That is not why He works like He does. He did not lead the Israelites thru the desert with a pillar of fire and a cloud of smoke just so it could be written in a book for you to read one day. He did it for so much more than that. He did it for the edification and strengthening of those individual people. “
And there is more….
“Jess, He did this for your sanctification and purification. He did this for you to know His love as your Abba Father thru Your divine adoption and for see more and more your daily need of Him. And He did this for the same in me. And He did this so that Adam could one day know that despite external, temporal pain and suffering, there is a Glory and a Redeeming Love that far outweigh them all. He did this so Adam could know a mother and father’s love, despite initial rejection of love at his outers. Then, the Holy One just happened to weave it into a beautiful story for many to join us in. But look at how He has changed us and loved Adam…”
Whew. Humbled. How prideful of me…to be so focused on the story rather than us as individuals.
My heart before Holiness.
Doesn’t He long to purify and remove that which does not radiate Him?
And don’t I desire the same?
He has used this Little Bird to reveal sin and selfishness within me and Raja.
He has strengthened our marriage.
He has deepened my faith and understanding.
He has taught me of Calvary Love.
And He has “placed the lonely in families”
And He did not do it just so we could have a blog, or just so Adam could be read about or talked about.
He did it for so much more personal of reasons than that.
For that is Who He is.
He deals with the 1 in the midst of 99.
He calls “daughter” the bleeding woman whom all others overlooked or disdainfully held distant.
He chose 12 to pour into for his years on earth and trusted them to carry it onwards.
He works from the inside out.
And how humbled I should be that He has orchestrated such a testimony from Adam’s life that does not just permeate thru my heart but thru thousands the world over.
And isn’t this story, of our Adam, all part of a much greater Story?
A redemptive Story of a Holiness that became flesh and dwelt among us?
Aren’t each of our heartbeats all authored and maintained by the Author of Life who is authoring a story of radical love that far outweighs any attempt of man to narrate love?
Yes, it is.
May we each see His Story today.
May we long to feast on His Words and His Story.
May His Story be heard.
**I just want to share that I treasure and LOVE each of your comments. I wish I had time to sit and respond to each one of them. But your stories and your encouragement are each so very treasured and I am so thankful that you share. Please know that I would love to meet and have a heart to heart with each of you but, alas, time is so short, isn’t it? And my 2 boys under my roof call for my affections and time firstly. I will try to be better about responding, but I just want you to know that you are loved and treasured and I am gracious for each word you share. Do not feel a need to stop despite the delay or lack of response;) I selfishly love them;)