WE: Unformed

This is motherhood (too)

this is motherhood {too}: a *very* special needs adoption journey July 15, 2014 by This is Motherhood Too  By Jessica Paulraj In September 2014, we will celebrate our oldest son’s 3rd birthday. His name is Adam and from what medicine and logic predicted, he was not supposed to live past 2 months.  Three years? How quickly they seem to have passed […]

And We’re BACK;)

Alright dear ones…I took an unannounced hiatus from this little blip on the screen of cyberspace.  I did it for two reasons. Reason 1: I am still learning how to pray. I have written a few entries now on “Teach Us How to Pray”, however, in many ways I did not feel as though I was […]

Prayers to guide us in praying for those that SEEM forgotten (because they’re not)

This is the 3rd in that “series”, of sorts, “Lord Teach us to Pray” ___________________________________________________________ The streets here seem to palpate with hardship and need at times.  The colors may be vibrant and the spices and bedazzled saris may tinge the streets with a romantic splendor that briefly distracts the gaze from the disabled beggar […]

Gusts of Glory

  We were sitting outside for our church service last week and Elliot was rummaging in the yard(Typically, he makes it thru worship then we play outside during sermon hour)He was running, full force, towards the grassy knoll surrounded by mountain glory…Then he stopped.Right in his tracks, he stopped.It took me a second to notice […]

In the name of LOVE; mental health and that time in London

So I once had this amazing opportunity to study in London.It was for a Diploma in Tropical Nursing at the London School of Hygiene and Tropical Medicine (yes.yes. the same school referenced in the last Call the Midwife episode…no big deal… hehe)That season in England was one I will treasure for many years. I was […]

MIA as we fled to the mountains

The blog is on a bit of a lull these days…About 2 weeks ago Adam’s health started deteriorating, specifically his skin.The heat swept thru our region of India and brought it’s two comrades, dust and brutality, with it.Those three comrades (heat, dust, and brutality) do not treat our Adam well…And his skin started going all […]

On Writing and All Hell Breaking Loose

First of all, thank you to all who went out to Downtown Jacksonville’s One Spark FestivalThe artist, Scott Morphew, who featured a piece for Adam placed 26th out of over 600 entries.That is pretty amazing _________________________________________________________________ So, honesty, it is a good policy. That is what they say;)And I have come to treasure transparency and […]

Lessons from Adam

Before I get started…read yesterday’s post and if you are in the Jax area… Head to One Spark and vote for Adam today! I have learned things from our Adam that will surely echo in my heart and mind forevermore. His life in itself is a miracle and a gift. His laughter, I am sure, makes […]

Be One Spark!

So you may remember last year, when we shared about One Spark Jacksonville? Well it is taking place again THIS WEEKEND.It is happening right now and local artist, Scott Morphew, is featuring his piece in honor of Adam again.You can visit the website for the current One Spark festival HERE If you are in Jacksonville, […]

South India Trip

I am sorry that I skipped a week (possibly 2, by now) in the Prayer Series I did not consider the 2 week trip to South India we were taking. And internet access was not a regularity;) I shared this picture below the night before we left for South India with a caption somewhat like […]

Lord, TEACH us to Pray

It is a Monday morning and at least 10 degrees higher (Fahrenheit) than every Monday morning thus far this year.  We have been outside all the day long and what a gift it has been. this boy LOVES being outside                               […]

Alive and Well

It is nearly 2pm on this Thursday afternoon. I am slowly being awakened by a steaming cup o joe and the sound of our washer machine, whose spin cycle’s noises could compete with any Kansas twister or demolition of a building. Literally, I can hear the machine when I bike by our house outside. But, […]

Feasting at His table; Kicking the locusts OUT

Sun rays are brilliant today. Those splendid green parrots are perched outside singing while Elliot naps and Adam tries to sleep. “Feast or famine” That is what they say right? That is what it seems like this week… Elliot’s face is covered in a strange rash/mysterious bug bits and Adam has his first sickness in […]

a little something to share…;)

How many Paulrajs fit on an Indian bicycle? At least 4….Why not add one more?!? Baby Paulraj set to arrive June 18th (happens to be my bday & my little sisters bday;) Adam and Elliot are still figuring out how they feel.Maybe we should upgrade to a car?Or atleast a rickshaw? 😉

“daddy’s with you Adam”

The dawn has not yet broken but awake we are. And the truth is, I am sure many more of you are awake, or will be woken up earlier than you plan in the morning to come. Because, isn’t that how life is? And the majority of you will wake up, take the coffee down, […]

On legs and clouds and a POEM

It is a cool, overcast afternoon.The white puffy clouds are masking the blue glory that lies beneath.But I am now in a place where I TRY to believe there is glory in these clouds too.Their presence does not negate the existence of the blue expanse above us all.There are certainly seasons where the blue firmament […]