WE: Unformed

This is motherhood (too)

this is motherhood {too}: a *very* special needs adoption journey July 15, 2014 by This is Motherhood Too  By Jessica Paulraj In September 2014, we will celebrate our oldest son’s 3rd birthday. His name is Adam and from what medicine and logic predicted, he was not supposed to live past 2 months.  Three years? How quickly they seem to have passed […]

And We’re BACK;)

Alright dear ones…I took an unannounced hiatus from this little blip on the screen of cyberspace.  I did it for two reasons. Reason 1: I am still learning how to pray. I have written a few entries now on “Teach Us How to Pray”, however, in many ways I did not feel as though I was […]

Prayers to guide us in praying for those that SEEM forgotten (because they’re not)

This is the 3rd in that “series”, of sorts, “Lord Teach us to Pray” ___________________________________________________________ The streets here seem to palpate with hardship and need at times.  The colors may be vibrant and the spices and bedazzled saris may tinge the streets with a romantic splendor that briefly distracts the gaze from the disabled beggar […]

On Writing and All Hell Breaking Loose

First of all, thank you to all who went out to Downtown Jacksonville’s One Spark FestivalThe artist, Scott Morphew, who featured a piece for Adam placed 26th out of over 600 entries.That is pretty amazing _________________________________________________________________ So, honesty, it is a good policy. That is what they say;)And I have come to treasure transparency and […]

Lord, TEACH us to Pray

It is a Monday morning and at least 10 degrees higher (Fahrenheit) than every Monday morning thus far this year.  We have been outside all the day long and what a gift it has been. this boy LOVES being outside                               […]

Alive and Well

It is nearly 2pm on this Thursday afternoon. I am slowly being awakened by a steaming cup o joe and the sound of our washer machine, whose spin cycle’s noises could compete with any Kansas twister or demolition of a building. Literally, I can hear the machine when I bike by our house outside. But, […]

Feasting at His table; Kicking the locusts OUT

Sun rays are brilliant today. Those splendid green parrots are perched outside singing while Elliot naps and Adam tries to sleep. “Feast or famine” That is what they say right? That is what it seems like this week… Elliot’s face is covered in a strange rash/mysterious bug bits and Adam has his first sickness in […]

On legs and clouds and a POEM

It is a cool, overcast afternoon.The white puffy clouds are masking the blue glory that lies beneath.But I am now in a place where I TRY to believe there is glory in these clouds too.Their presence does not negate the existence of the blue expanse above us all.There are certainly seasons where the blue firmament […]

Joy in 2014

2013 has come and gone. What a year it was For fun, I put together this little video with about 30 favorite pictures from 2013The pictures stream thru in 15 seconds It may make you dizzy…(Hopefully not) I do not think I have mastered the video making in 15 seconds yet. But give it a […]

Christmas Reflection (from Christmas 2011)

We had a lovely 2013 Christmas…full with an energetic Elliot and a cuddly Adam. Here is a bit from 2 years ago that I enjoyed reflecting on this Christmas Love to each of you _____________________________________________________________ Remember, as this “Christmas season” passes. Remember that  Abba Father is not a season.  Each night is holy. For He […]

On 5 Minute Fridays…Or lack thereof;)

So there is this woman named Lisa Jo Baker.  She is a brilliant, real, and quite funny writer. And she started this thing called “5 Minute Friday” which I love It calls writers/bloggers/whomever to write for 5 minutes flat, every Friday, on a word she chooses You do not have time to edit it…you just […]

the language of his hands

Yesterday was my dad’s birthday. So I thought I would share this memory from last year, in honor of him;) I wrote this after his first trip to India in March 2013. It was epic indeed;) So Poppa Cooksey (my dad) has departed our “raj mahal” here in north India.He is currently in Delhi, worshiping […]

5 Minute Friday

I am linking up with hundreds (maybe thousands?) of other women HERE This week is “Truth” (No time for editing or such…just write then stop) __________________________________________________________________ I remember that dusty classroom on the second floorSituated in my high school in downtown JacksonvilleThose classrooms and halls were filled with some of the most brilliant minds I have […]

“Let us Break Bread together ON OUR KNEES”

Cool mists are sweeping thru these mountainous regions and the chill is invigorating.While I sip on this chicken and potato spicy soup goodness, that song plays on.It is a song that I have been playing on repeat since Sunday.Because on Sunday morning I was despondent.No reason, specifically.Just despondent and questioning His ways.Questioning the paradoxical Truth […]

Because I have been with Him

I journeyed by bicycle today with Elliot on my back. Raja and Adam were sound asleep, so Elliot and I took off. It was grand, indeed;) We saw lots of beauty. It surrounded us. In rays of sun piercing thru blades of grass. In marigold buckets overflowing all down the street. In fields aglow atop […]

Meeting Saliman (Part 2)

I wrote last week about meeting a precious boy named Saliman.You can read Part 1 hereI decided to do a Part 1 and Part 2 because my heart was divided after meeting him. Though it was all rooted in joy and thankfulness, there was a sadness too.It is hard to explain, I guess.But it is […]

A beautiful, anonymous response to “Laundry”

So last week I wrote on “Laundry”It was a quick, unedited, and rushed post I wrote about what I learned on a Delhi rooftop about “Laundry”And the one comment I got in response was from someone anonymousBut it was just glorious. This was it“Laundry and dirty dishes, too. Miserable chores that have secret messages–we are […]