WE: Unformed

He never slumbers. He never sleeps

“Behold  He That keepeth Israel Shall neither slumber   Nor sleep.” Let me share a recent story Adam has a tracheostomy right? That is the tube that goes thru the neck, into the trachea, that he breathes thru right now It is temporary. And we have to suction the tracheostomy pretty frequently… Adam has a strong […]

the language of his hands

So Poppa Cooksey (my dad) has departed our “raj mahal” here in north India.He is currently in Delhi, worshiping with Raja, and these faces before he returns home to the US These faces belong to some of my favorite people in all the world So Poppa Cooksey has left, but his love was powerful in […]

Just in Case

Just in case you read THIS POST from yesterday.And in case you followed THIS LINK that told youWe are starting again…with the end goal of $150,000Before my baby boy can get his cleft palate repaired as well as 2 other surgeries… Just in case you were overwhelmed for me and Adam and our family…Just in case you […]

This 6th day of March

Is a pretty chill day.It was a bit of a hectic morning.But the mountains in the distanceAnd the rays of sun fallingAnd the sound of Adam’s laughterAnd the sweetness of Elliot’s sleeping faceThe presence of my dadAnd the morning visit by RajaAnd the singing of Hadassah despite hard nights Remind me that He is good.And […]

This and That

So my dad (Jessica’s) is in town this week And we are enjoying his presence so very much. I may not do many updates and we are headed out of town with him for the weekend. But just so you know, all is well. meeting granddad for the first time! And thank you to Mandie […]

on Adam

We have not done a general health update on Adam.So I do apologize for that.He has surpassed our expectations, for sure.But there have surely been difficulties as well.  He is crawling like CRA-CRA- CRAZY.The boy knows how to get around.He roams this place like his own little kingdom.And he can get up on his knees […]

5 months

Elliot Justice Paulraj 5 months old. THAT is hard to believe.                                                            Elliot- “my God is the Lord” Justice- “do justice. love mercy. walk humbly with your […]

pictures speak a thousand words

Elliot was in the process of rolling across the bed..Adam slides in his way…props up…and checks the time…and wouldnt budge maybe my favorite…when lacking entertainment…prop a mirror in front of them…or 2;) dont really know what is happening here…except that about 1.3 seconds later…Adam was attacking my computer next to Elliot…he can move like lightning […]

Vday. Lips. Faithfulness. 1 year later.

So this was our update on Valentine’s Day 1 year ago.Adam had just finished 8.5 hours of surgeryCleft lip repaired and a major leg surgeryWe had 3 weeks of ICU ahead of us.And a tracheostomy that would stay longer than we would have hopedHe was on a ventilator with every piece of equipment possible around […]

The Why’s

The sun always sets straight into our bedroom window.It is near setting now. Elliot is sweetly sleeping and THIS BOY is joining me as I write to you now.In the setting rays of the sun he sits. He sits with perfect posture.He laughs and his face dimples.And it is glorious. Have you heard THIS STORY ?It is […]

things as they are

dear ones. Raja just came for a fill up on black coffee. (praise Him for the bodum french press)And I am enjoying my second cup of chai.Because we need some major caffeine fixes these days. That is just how it is.That is “things as they are”.I started this tradition a few months back…just writing out […]

HABITual TRUST

I guess it was nearly midnight on Christmas Eve Our little 3 foot tree’s lights were twinkling in the window’s reflection. We were heading for bed When thru the night’s darkness “there arose such a clatter”… Not the St. Nicolas clatter we sing about though At first I thought it was just another wedding reception… […]

Thank you;) And a celebration;)

Dear all My favorite 2 shots from the week… Thank you so much for your prayers for Adam. It has been an exhausting few days…not gonna lie..but each day’s tapestry has been threaded with sustaining grace. Adam has been up a lot itching, rubbing his head against the bed frame (until we get to him). […]

please pray;)

Dear ones… So we are celebrating 4 months of ELLIOT JUSTICE PAULRAJ todayAnd I have lots of pictures and love to share in that area…But I will post that tomorrow Until then…please pray for Adam todayHe has some new skin lesions and a rash that we cannot figure outIt is discouraging and a bit overwhelming.We […]

Reflections

A recent heartbreaking and brutal crime in Delhi, India has sparked much conversation about women, safety, rights, crime, rape, etc.  I am praying that a problem that has long been present here…thru being brought into the LIGHT…will see some alleviation  This article says so much. After reading it…I remembered this that I wrote a while back. […]

You Are Not Alone

“You are not Alone” is the title of a blog series started by a friend, Mandie Joy, out of South Carolina.Her heart is to connect people going thru “painful times” so that we can be an encouragement to one another.Vulnerability is powerful and needed, I believe.And the power of story is significant. You can find […]

Remember

The ability to remember is such a gift.For when we remember, we see things as they are.We see His handiwork that we may have not seen when things were all unfolding.I love this by Clive Staples himself:“Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is different….” Often times, […]

Disability Day

This is Disability Week and yesterday was “Disability Day”.Since Abba is so good and intimate, 3 weeks after Adam’s birth, we were transferred to a hospital in the North of India which as a program for children with “special needs”.“Anugrah”Grace.That is what it means.That is what the program is called.Beautiful, huh?So, although there a many […]

Sunday Sunday

(First let me say I am sorry to all whom I have not responded to…phone calls, emails, fb messages…we have been without internet since the day before Thanksgiving…then it was “repaired”…but, alas, it is still not working. It comes for about an hour every 3 days. So I have written a few emails and blog […]

A Mother’s Treasures

This is the precious journal my mom, Mother Teresa, to me, gave me after Raja and I got married. It is full of her heart cries that had rung in the 24 years of raising me, her oldest of 5.The woman is an incredible woman.I am humbled that I was mothered by one such as […]