WE: Unformed

On the mend?

Dear onesThank you for your prayers that you never hold back.Thank you for walking with us. (I think) Adam is on the mend.He is still weak and occasionally having reflux type responses to foodI think his stomach is just building itself back up.Poor guy lost probably 2 lbs or more during these daysRaja has been […]

this is not the end

I am listening to this lovely arrangement of divine words and dreaminess (is that a word?) this morning. Between replays, my ears rejoice on the sound of my two boys laughing.Each boys’ laughter is a miracle in itself.Elliot’s is deep-belly rooted and makes my heart leap with laughter as well.He is full of joy and […]

Red curtains

“Didi, it is like those curtains in the temple”she said in innocent wonder. Her 19 year old body masks a little girl just now having eyes open.Just now feeling a freedom to speak.And what beauty she seesWhat beauty she speaks.She does not filter what she says for the approval of man.Her heart just speaks.It criesIt […]

On fundraising and the Valley of Vision

Dear ones,Will you excuse me?Pardon my delay in updating you all.The fundraiser did go on.Many people visited and heard Adam’s story as well as many other stories and creations from the community of Jacksonville.We did not get the most votes.But a beautiful organization, started by a sweet friend, did get most of the votes and […]

Lover of the light

When you see a baby born with eyes that cannot close You realize all the intricate detail and necessity of each part of these earthly bodiesWhen that baby becomes your son And your son does not have eyelids You realize that the life of a baby is a life of a person And you KNOW […]

on siblings and such

So I would have never known today was National Sibling Day in the US.  UNTIL my precious sister, Hope(rs) posted this photo collage. It just made my day. Can I just give a shout out to you, Hopers? Thank you for staying in touch with me thru pictures and letters so well. I love you […]

Things as They Are: because it is how He did it

So.I am now writing you from the couch.The windows are openThe curtains are rising and falling with the breeze. Chai is steaming Boys are contentedly playing with one another There are literally 40 monkeys outside  They are bending bamboo stalks at angles I did not know possible The bamboo breaking long, thin shadows between falling […]

afire with Him

Earth’s crammed with heaven And every common bush afire with God; But only he who sees, takes off his shoes, The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries,” -elizabeth barrett browning Dear one, I hope wherever you are today You will see the fire of His beauty  Even in the most common of things.  Take […]

Death in its grave

Yesterday was Raj’s birthday. Happy birthday, loved one. Thanks for loving our boys so well. I spent some time yesterday reflecting Reflecting on the past few weeks. They have been a bit busy. They have been all over the place…figuratively and literally. They have been hard. But redemptive. They have shown Him as Sustainer and […]

We are alive;)

Dear all, Just when I think we are in the habit of keeping you all regularly updating.And keeping myself regularly debriefing and recording this season of beauty and chaos that we are walking thru.I get real far behind.But we are here and alive and well. Adam got a nasty case of pneumonia.So we drove to […]

2 years

Million Miles  has been playing throughout my dayThinking of these 2 years of marriage that have passedAnd the seemingly million miles that have been traveled.And for a couple that had planned to not bring kiddos into the family for “at least 3 years”THIS is a comical photo… our 2 babies on our 2 year anniversary […]

making a habit of trusting Him

Maybe it was while I was up at before the sun was rising… Nursing my Elliot Or Peeling ginger, Crushing cardamom pods and grinding down the cinnamon All for the umpteenth time For our morning chai  (For we surely know sleep deprivation these days  With one son with a tracheostomy in a real cold house with […]

a vapor…

Today marks 4 MONTHS of Elliot’s life! Truly…since Adam’s entrance into our life…I have never seen just how fading time is.Just a vapor in the wind, dear ones.So do hold it tightly, yet loosely.Hold it tightly and love with all that you have in these momentsYet, hold it loosely, for He is the Author of […]

for the night ahead

So we have 2 sick babes here. Adam with a fever and indigestion. He is started on some antibiotics. Elliot with…PINK EYE.  Oh man. Do please pray that they can both rest. And heal. And that Adam does not get pink eye. That would not be good for that sweet fellow whose eyes are already […]

He never slumbers. He never sleeps

“Behold  He That keepeth Israel Shall neither slumber   Nor sleep.” Let me share a recent story Adam has a tracheostomy right? That is the tube that goes thru the neck, into the trachea, that he breathes thru right now It is temporary. And we have to suction the tracheostomy pretty frequently… Adam has a strong […]

the language of his hands

So Poppa Cooksey (my dad) has departed our “raj mahal” here in north India.He is currently in Delhi, worshiping with Raja, and these faces before he returns home to the US These faces belong to some of my favorite people in all the world So Poppa Cooksey has left, but his love was powerful in […]